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2012-01-17T13:25:00.003-07:00

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Let the Crazy Summer Begin...

2011-06-30T12:15:00.004-06:00

So starts another summer, this one more crazy than the last. Full of weekend trips, birthday parties and sprinkler running outside. Also more laundry, due to 3 boys and mud, more tears due to teething and lots of wrestling and yet even more tears. What am was I thinking having kids so close together!

The three boys have taken to wresting each other to the death, or whoever starts to cry uncontrollably, and chasing eat other around the house on ride on toys, and then ramming each other with them until I swear there should be chunks of ride on toys flying everywhere... durable little things they are!

So for a bit of an update, Jaxon and Canaan are now 19 months!! 19 MONTHS! Where has this time gone, they get into EVERYTHING, always go in opposite directions and are eating me out of house and home! They eat almost an adult portion at every meal EACH! And still weigh only 20 pounds. (Trace was 28 by now!). Trace is in swimming lessons and although he loves the water he seems to have problems with authority... go figure.. and listening to his teacher, so we will wait until Sept due to vacations and put him back in! Trace has made some new friends with the neighbor girls across the street and even stayed there for dinner one day. He was pretty proud of what a big boy he is! He is also totally potty trained... no pull ups no diapers ... thank goodness!!! One less diaper to change.. the twins are NOWHERE near being ready!

So as we are heading into the long weekend and heading up to Shushwap lake we look forward to NO rest... and relaxation due to the water front lot my parents have.. but instead we look forward to life jackets, splashing in the water swimming with the twins and Trace, boating, chasing the twins, chasing Trace falling asleep early and exhausted and with HUGE smiles on our faces!

Canaan camping Fathers Day weekend a few tears....
Trace and I at Cousin Nissa's wedding on the Island
Jaxon loves to throw rock in the water at Golden Ears Park. Camping Fathers Day weekend.

Shhhh.... I am trying to train...

2011-03-22T16:27:00.003-06:00

Yup trying to get my butt in gear here... have the triathlon in less than a month with the Sun Run the next day.. along with a birthday party.. something tells me that Monday I will not be able to move! I am deciding between the names Samson or Emery for my bike name... based on some of the suggestions provided by you ladies! Thanks!!! I googled strength names for boys and those are two of my favs!

Boys have been CRAZY lately... Trace NEEEEEDS everything and repeats over and over, Jaxon is super sweet and Canaan is loving the sound of his own scream... Ear piercing deafness usually follows a super scream from Canaan... yipeee for us. Trace is finally getting his last 2 year molar... after over 2 years of teething I am DONE with that and him teething... thank goodness! I checked his mouth today and sure enough it is through and bleeding... ugh. Jaxon has 6 teeth (one just came thought) and Canaan is working on his sixth. He seems to get them one at a time while Jaxon gets them two at a time... strange.

My brother in law and sister in law had a little baby girl yesterday... LOVE her name... Brooklyn Grace. She is beautiful and tiny... and sooo sweet! My sister in law was lucky this time around labour was quick and she made her entrance almost in the car!!! So the family is now 5 grandchildren deep on one side and almost 4 on the other!!! I am so blessed to have so many cousins for the boys! all girls too ... so at least I get my girl fix.

Hoping to head out for a run soon.. although I am sure it will rain the minute I do, so to those that actually read this... Samson or Emery? What to name my bike... which I am loving more and more!!!

A Tri... and a Name????

2011-03-07T15:15:00.002-07:00

Well yesterday I completed my first triathlon... although it was only a short (400m swim, 10 km ride, 5 km run) it was HARD! Lots of fun but mind blowingly hard! Getting in the pool and knowing that all around you people are swimming and trying to do their best... realizing that a 50 m pool is WAY different than a 25 m pool and just hoping to get through it. Then the confusion of getting changed, while wet, and running to your bike with legs that are jelly... finding your bike and getting on it without issues... doing the ride. Realizing you needed to practice more... finding a spot to put your bike, then looking for your backpack that another rider placed their bike on, and shedding some gear before the run. Your legs feel like LEAD for the first km... which you can't believe is only 1 km. by about 2 you are in a groove and realize that YES you are almost done! You make up some time lost during confusions and changes and come out feeling pretty darn good! I can't wait for the next one... April 16th. I am doing a Sprint so 700m swim, 20 km ride and a 5km run!

After all is said and done I have been told by a few people that I need to name my bike... He is black and white and grey... a road bike and I love him! Soooo anyone want to help with his name? suggestions?

Goodbye Farmville!

2011-02-02T12:42:00.003-07:00

Ok so lame I know... and yes I am writing about it. I woke up this morning, got the kids eating and sat down to play some farmville, and suddenly thought REALLY? I mean come on... I could be sitting with the kids, eating with them and playing even more with them. This is stupid. I worry about my crops... yes I felt LAME! Sooo deleted... blocked, erased.. GONE! I feel... hmmm relief. I can blog, knit, play with kids and do lots of other things instead of that. And my husband can stop making fun of me. YES! A friend of mine deleted it a month or so ago and I remember thinking.. wow wish I could do that. Then I realized that yes it was an addiction and it needed to go.

Well don't want to spend to much time one here... twins are sleeping and it is just me and Trace.. time to sit down and play or cuddle him.. whatever he wants! sigh... bliss!!!!

Teeth, painting.... hmmm what else???

2011-02-01T15:41:00.002-07:00

Well it seems as though the mystery of the fussy kid has solved itself. Canaan has popped a tooth. That makes 5 for him and 4 for Jaxon. Wondering when his will pop. In good news Trace's last 2 year molar has finally popped through!!! HE IS DONE!!!! Ahhh and breathe. I have to say I am not a fan of this whole teething thing, the kids are uncomfortable, they get whiney and then I get... hmm winey? lol as in a nice drink at the end of the day!

I don't remember if I mentioned this before but I am also done nursing them! yup... made it to 14 months. Never had to buy them formula thank you! I have to admit.. I understand that yes breastfeeding is good for the kids, it gives them everything they need but I found that my main motivation was the price of formula.. is that so wrong? I realized with Trace that formula is not always the easy way to go. It is so much easier to just whip a boob out feed and put it back away. No sterilizing, no bottle prep.. no worrying about temp of anything... although happy to say boys are on Whole milk and I am done!

The parents are away in Palm Springs right now so Kyle and I have decided to paint the master bedroom. I did a base coat and a first coat today... while kids were eating and sleeping... Kyle will finish the two walls tonight and we can start on the other two walls tomorrow!!! Mom and Dad will be very surprised! Maybe our room will finally feel like our room instead of my parents old bedroom. I have to say that living at home again... although it has some challenges has been a lot of fun.

In amazing news my sister in law and brother in Edmonton are coming in 13 more sleeps! I am soo excited to finally see them. I have missed them. We are all going to cram inside the house and hopefully head to the aquarium and do some other fun stuff while they are here!

Ok kids are getting fussy and I need to make a phone call... will hopefully post some pics soon!

Girly Knits

2011-01-27T17:26:00.002-07:00

Sigh.. yup picked up my knitting needles again recently. It is so nice to have a project in mind and to feel like I am making something truly special for someone. My sister in law on my hubby's side is having another girl! That means GIRLY KNITS! In pink!!!! So off to the yarn store I went and picked up some great stuff! Already half way through the first one. Can't wait to start the next. At least it blocks the gory stuff of TV from me while we are watching Criminal Minds, or Grey's.

I am also training for a triathlon. After many years of no sports for me, I have decided.. it is time to invest in myself and something that I will enjoy doing. So my dad and I went off to the bike store and bought me a road bike! Although I haven't ridden it yet I can't wait. Thought I would try out a little bit of everything in one day and see how I do. So I ran up to the gym on Tuesday night, about 3 kms or so, then I did a one hour spin class (which kicked my butt!) and after that it was off to the pool for 36 laps. I have to say that although I was tired I was feeling pretty good! I can't wait for the real thing... and doing the swimming first instead of last! I think my times will be a bit better!

Well babes are up... so I am off! that was a short post. Hope to keep up with this a little more!

Potty Training... and some other stuff

2011-01-24T14:37:00.003-07:00

Soooo we have decided to start potty training Trace.. well we have potty trained him, I think. We are on week three, and with two under our belt we are definitely having WAY less accidents! And no real pee ones, only the messy poop kind. Yipeee for me. I woke up on the 10th of January and said.. what the heck why not put him in underwear and haven't really looked back. That day started with 7 accidents, the next day 6 and it has gone WAY down since then to maybe 1 a day! I have to give a BIG thank you to skittles for being an awesome candy for treats once he has peed, one for a pee and two for a poop!

On Saturday we decided to venture to Nana's house for a get together with Trace only in his undies... well only one accident and go figure it was a NASTY poop one. UGH, but all in all a successful outing. I am excited as we have WAY decreased our diaper output and Trace seems to be now having fun with it. He picks his undies and loves to show off his ummm "deposits" to me and Daddy, Granny and Grampa and any other guests over for a visit. Lucky them!

Canaan is now full time walking! Which makes life extra crazy, and to top off our week last week, Jaxon burned himself. So we have been dealing with keeping his hand clean, Canaan getting into everything and making sure that Trace is not peeing or pooping in his underwear!

AHHHHH!!! I felt I needed an outlet of some sort and so I picked up a knitting project, a new pair of socks for me! And looking at making some things for little babies on the way too!

So our life in a nutshell has been just that lately.. nutty! Will post some pics soon and I really do hope to keep this updated!

Quick drop in!

2010-12-15T21:34:00.002-07:00

I have a friend who runs www.rockprettybaby.ca she is running a contest giving away a free KLEEN KANTEEN... for those of that don't know what that is check out the rockprettybaby website or like her on Facebook! She has amazing products and fun stuff for kids and parents!!!

Emotions.... or whatever

2010-11-09T08:31:00.002-07:00

As many already know we are moving... and not just down the street or across towns but into another province and back into my childhood home... yup moving back with the parents. Although this is temporary.. like a few years or so it is humbling, and stressful and all sorts of different things. We are currently looking for a renter for our house, trying to find a home for our cats (a wonderful friend has said she will take them.... but that is this weekend... I don't know if I am ready to say goodbye yet), packing a house with three young kids in it... and even trying to comprehend saying goodbye to my friends and family here... FORGET IT! I break down even thinking about it. We have made some amazing friends out here. I don't know if I could have survived Alberta without one particular bff...

So with only a few more weeks I am FREAKING out about everything. We have also had a wonderful house guest this last week who helped us finish the kitchen, take care of the kids and pack some boxes... he left today so now I am alone with my thoughts again. I hate being alone with my thoughts. And to top it off I have had the flu the last few days. Yes I know that this is turning into a woe is me post but that is how I feel today... yup I said it today is a down day. Kyle is going to work from home after he comes back from the airport as I don't have any energy left... what an awesome hubby.

Well off to loaf on the couch and watch the kids play... thank goodness they will play for hours... I don't know what I would do if they were having another needy day today. Only one needy person allowed/ day.

Snow??

2010-10-25T07:48:00.004-06:00

Bad pic of Trace but for about a month he swaddled these and called them his babies!

Canaan.. always makes funny faces when I take a pic!
Jaxon... my sweet little man
Yup snowed last night... woke up this morning to find my oldest son already up and playing in the living room. We bought him mini hockey sticks this weekend and he has taken to sleeping with one and playing whenever he gets up. Funny thing.. I don't really care, b/c he now sleeps with the hockey stick he only insists on ONE soother! or Churro as he calls it! I am hoping to wean him off of soothers by Christmas.. maybe have one very cool toy that takes its place! He only gets them at bedtimes now too thank goodness!

Canaan is standing... most of the time without knowing it and only for a few seconds but wow!! Don't know if I am ready for a walker yet! It just seems like this year has flown by, last year at this time I had problems moving or walking for long periods, I had Braxton Hicks every 10 minutes and was just hoping to hold on to the boys a bit longer. They are 11 months this week... 11 MONTHS! Where did that go? I keep flashing back to the weekend we brought them home, how cold it was, how scared everyone was to hold them as they were so tiny. Now they are 17 ad 18 pounds, eating solids, only nursing 3 times a day and every day their little personalities show more and more. I feel so lucky to have them every day and yet... man I am tired at the end of the day!

So as some people know we are moving in a month.. yup one month.. still hoping to rent out the house to some nice people (possible renters are coming by this week!) and we packed up the basement this weekend! Yipeee to feeling like something got done for once. So after a full day of packing and moving stuff out to the garage we finally go to relax and realize that our drain in the laundry room is plugged and has overflowed EVERYWHERE! argh!!! No more laundry until Kyle snakes it out. Sooo frustrating man I can't wait to move. I mean I LOVE my house, my neighborhood is awesome but I want to be closer to my family. We are done being so far away and feeling so left out of things!

Rough

2010-10-22T16:40:00.003-06:00

Trace on a cool fall day!

Canaan... playing in the grassJaxon... playing in the grass! Both at 10 months.

Man I am so ready for this week to be over, trying to wean just one feed from the kids as I do want to be done breast feeding them before Christmas, I am ready for it. They don't seem to be getting enough milk from me anymore and I would like to keep at least two solid breast feeds out of the four I do daily. Soo frustrating .. have tried so many different nipples and sippys ... anyone know the key? warm milk, cold milk? I just need a bit of a break. None of my other friends with twins have bfed this long!

Other than the trying to wean the kids seem to be extra whiny, I am trying to find the time to pack up the house, deal with the kids, hope for a buyer for the house or someone to rent it, then I get rear ended. So off to buy three new car seats which thank goodness my insurance is paying for! They said they will fight with the other insurers to get reimbursed! yipee for me! So three matching car seats, Jaxon and Canaan are now officially out of the bucket seats.

For those of you that didn't know .. WE ARE MOVING!! yup Kyle got a job back in Vancouver so we will be moving at the end of Nov! sooo excited! But so nervous, we have so much to do and sooo little time! I am praying that God takes care of us and helps us with the house ... we are looking for a home for the cats as we are going to be living with my parents for who knows how long. They will take the dog but not the cats as they already have one. It is devastating to think that I won't be curled up around my Jasper at night anymore. Love love love my cats!

Keep on meaning to post more often on here but just haven't found the time. Go figure! If you look back to my day in life you too will understand! haha!

10 Months... where did you go?

2010-09-27T09:18:00.004-06:00

Trace at 2 years... and a few months
Jaxon 9.5 months
Canaan. 9.5 months
Jaxon with his back to us and Canaan and his silly grin... almost 10 months!
I can't believe that come Wednesday the twins are 10 months... I am already starting to plan their party, making the invite list, trying to figure out how we will fit all the kids in the house. Trying to find the answer to the question... what do they need or want for their birthday. Ummmm how terrible of me is it to say... gift cards please. I have no idea what I need for clothes, depends on how fast they grow, we do however need a new big boy carseat so gift cards can go towards that. Or gift cards to clothing stores so that when I do need something I already have the cash to get it! I can deny it I LOVE GIFT CARDS! Always have... the giver gets out of trying to figure out what you want and the receiver can go out and get whatever they want! It is perfect!

Lowered the babies cribs today... they are standing and trying to climb out so I figured for safety sake ... maybe just maybe I should do that. But they look sooo low! And I refuse to believe that my little men are growing up! The twins are crawling and sitting and pulling up... Canaan tries to copy things that I say which is pretty cute... he tries sooo hard! Jaxon is just happy to be held ALL the time! Somewhat frustrating as I can't hold all of them. I have taken to laying on the floor on my tummy and letting them crawl all over me. (They can't poke my eyes this way or grab a boob!)

Trace is talking more and more... he puts words into sentences which is awesome and we are actually understanding bits of it! He has started choosing what he wants to wear during the day which of course is sometimes quite scary... but what do you do? He is in his big boy bed since January, and he is doing awesome! Just figured out door knobs this summer... not so great but at least when he has a nightmare he comes to us instead of us going to him.

Kyle is officially looking at jobs in Vancouver and the surrounding area!!! I am sooo excited yet trying hard not to show it. We told Leavitt 6 months and they don't seem to be doing much about it so we are looking elsewhere a bit too... we both would really like to stay with Leavitt but they don't seem to understand our time line. Ah well.

Posted some updated pics too... for those of you that want to see them!

A Day in The Life....

2010-08-26T07:45:00.004-06:00

For those of you who are curious.. or just so that I could look back and see what I do in a day... This was definatley an interesting day to record. And yet it was a typical day. So event by event here was my day August. 25th, 2010.

6:30 - wake up as Trace climbs into bed with us
7:15 - Twins get up .. change diapers Canaan pees through so I have to change his outfit
7:20 - nurse them
7:30 - Breakfast for Trace... he chooses 2 waffles, 1 yogurt and a handful of popcorn.. and eats it ALL!!
7:35 - Try to find the muffin trays and paper cups.
7:40 - Jaxon spits up on me and in my hair.. who would have thought with short hair but yup he coated me!
7:45 - Give up and have breakfast
7:50 - Canaan poops
7:55 - put twins in chairs with toys and soothers
8:00 - Realize Canaan is about to fall out of chair even though he is strapped in, take the boys out of the chairs and put them in their jumpers.
8:08 - Shower to get the puke out of my hair
8:20 - get out of shower pick up clothes off of floor and drop my nursing bra in the toilet.. great... just great.
8:25 - Trace puts his hands in the toilet ... declares them "yucky" so we wash his hands
- Trace grabs lint off of the floor and pops it in his mouth.. declares this "yummy"
- Realize that I need to vacuum.
8:27 - Twins still happy in their jumpers so I take out the vacuum
8:32 - finish the carpet and realize that Jaxon is terrified of the vacuum and the noise it makes... hmmmm
8:33 - cereal for the twins
8:42 - Finish cereal and leave them in chairs with snacks and finish vacuuming hardwood and kitchen
9:16 - Done vacuuming , wipe the kids and seats down
9:17 - Change Jaxon (poop) Canaan (poop) and Trace... no poop thank goodness!
9:30 - Make muffins
9:40 - Jaxon and Canaan down for first nap
9:45 - check email and brush my teeth
10:15- make a coffee and read my book club book
10:30 - read with Trace
10:40 - put in toy story and read scary sid to Trace
- make my Costco list
10:45 - Call Kyle re:costco and having help, text Auntie Lindsay to see if she can help
10:50 - Pretend I am a monster and chase Trace around the kitchen and living room
10:55 - remember I have coffee... thank goodness it is iced coffee!
11:05 - Jaxon and Canaan up
- Canaan has pulled himself into a stand in his crib for the first time
- Trace crawls into Jaxon's crib and start playing with him
- Call Granny
11:14 - Trace pulls milk jug out of fridge and uses it as a drum
11:16 - Call Lisa (but dial our home number by mistake first)
11:20 - Nurse Canaan
11:30 - Nurse Jaxon
11:45 - Trace down for a nap... after a massive tantrum and a thrown soother
11:48 - Get Jaxon and Canaan's lunch out to thaw
11:51 - Let Whiskey outside
- Do hair and paint on some mascara
11:55 - Throw in first load of laundry
12:05 - Email a few people back and have some lunch
12:18 - Clean up the spit up I just found on the floor
- Put Trace back in bed he has another tantrum
- Put Jaxon and Canaan down for another nap, they are both screaming but I have to get them down if I want to go to
costco
12:33 - Trace and Canaan still screaming, wipe Trace's nose and put him back in bed again
12:36 - ALL KIDS ARE ASLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!! (this is way to good to be true!!!)
12:37 - check email, eat the rest of my lunch, and read my book again.
12:45 - Trace still crying .. it was too good to be true... he demands Buzz Year to sleep
12:54 - House is still quiet... I think they are all asleep!
1:04 - Put laundry in the dryer and put 2nd load in the wash.
1:20 - pack diaper bag for Costco
1:44 - Jaxon is awake... feed him lunch
2:00 - Canaan is awake... feed him lunch
2:11 - change diapers and dress Canaan and Jaxon
2:25 - Trace is up and eating lunch
2:30 - Change Trace
2:32 - Change Jaxon... he pooped...
2:34 - Load Trace and Canaan into Van... Trace runs down the street.
2:37 - Load Jaxon and diaper bag into the car
2:40 - On the road to Costco
2:45 - Realize I forgot the money at home.. turn around and go and pick it up
2:50 - STARBUCKS!!!!!!!!!
4:30 - Get home and unload the car.. only Canaan pooped at Costco! It only takes 7 trips to get everyone and everything into the house!
4:40 - Change Jaxon and Canaan... both poopy AGAIN!
4:43 - Kyle is home.. and HE changes Trace's poopy diaper..
4:48 - Dual Nurse Canaan and Jaxon
4:59 - Start dinner (enchiladas) Kyle's buddy Kyle come for dinner...
5:04 - Get out dinner for Canaan and Jaxon
5:15 - Wash dishes from the day
5:40 - Dinner is in the oven
5:43 - Feed twins their dinner
6:15 - Eat dinner... FINALLY!!
6:29 - Jaxon poops.. change him
6:25 - get mauled by kids on the floor... play with them!
6:35 - do the dishes
6:45 - check email again
7:05 - Kyle changes Canaan's poop and dresses him for bed
7:06 - Nurse Canaan while Kyle changes Jaxon's poop and dresses him for bed
7:15 - Nurse Jaxon
7:21 - Canaan and Jaxon in BED!!!!!
7:26 - Jaxon is sleeping and Canaan is crying
- Kyle puts Trace in his pjs!
7:28 - Start cleaning up toys and making our living room look ... hmmm like our living room! haha
7:57 - Kyle brushes Trace's teeth while I get his room ready for bedtime!
8:07 - Trace is in bed
8:14 - Trace in bed a 2nd time
8:17 - Trace in bed a 3rd time
8:25 - Trace in bed a 4th time
8:37 - Trace in a bed a 5th and FINAL time!
8:44 - Head downstairs to veg
9:50 - Remember I was doing laundry.. switch loads over and fold clean laundry
10:15 - litter box
10:25 - Wash face, brush teeth and check email
10:30 - look in on the kids and tuck them in! My fav part of the night.. looking at sleeping kidlets!
10:40 - Read in bed
11:00 - Lights off in bed!
11:07 - Canaan cries... I get up and make sure all is well.. .then back to bed!

6:30 AM... IT ALL STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

Well to all of you who actually read this... thanks!!! I didn't realize that a day in my life was full of this many poops! And sometimes there are more! haha! BUT we got out, we cleaned house, we played and we napped! All in all a very successful day for us!

Who Woulda Thought?.....

2010-03-23T10:36:00.003-06:00

Yup who woulda thought that just a few years after I got married I would have three CRAZY boys! My priorities would switch from work to breastfeeding and maintaining sanity. That my love for shoes and purses would switch to diaper bags, strollers and good buys at Baby Gap. Sigh.... I have to admit sometimes I miss just being able to leave the house no worries, heck I miss being able to leave the house. But I wouldn't trade that for the world. Speaking of Strollers my mom just picked up a great buy on a used Valco twin in Vancouver and sent it out. Instead of paying 800 for a new one I only paid 450 for a used one! AND I can mount a third seat on it for Trace... so who knows.. maybe I will be able to get out of the house. We are going to try it this week and go for a mall walk with my friends. We will see how that works... 4 ladies, 4 strollers, 8 children... I THINK WE ARE CRAZY! 2 of us are breastfeeding so at least we won't just be stopping for me thank goodness. Will update after the trip... who knows what will happen.
Ever since my mom left I have had dreams of moving home, a home... where the help is abundant and the friends and family are plentiful and the rain is ALL the time! I am so happy that I had help for the first few months as we are now somewhat established.. the boys sleep for 5 hours at a time now and we are somewhat sain at the end of the day. But to be around my parents and Kyle's family... would be such a prayer answered. Ah well a girl can dream right?
In other news we have shots this Friday for the twins... 4 months already! Where is this time going? Pretty soon I will be making baby food. I am going to the shots alone with them which kinda scares me. Don't know how exactly it is going to work but it will have to. Ah well. I look forward to seeing how much they weigh and how they are doing on their growth charts! Well they are stirring.... time to go!

Visitors??

2010-03-12T08:15:00.002-07:00

Well the visitors have come and gone and now I am really on my own every day... frankly it sucks. I love the adult interaction and conversation during the day. To be able to sit down and have a coffee in the morning and chat with a friend or my mom was priceless. Now what am I going to do. We have been pretty busy around here lately and now things are going to slow down a little... sigh. Trace is still getting his first four molars in and come 4pm in the afternoon things get a little scary around here.... yesterday we had a 2 hour cry fest. yuck!!!
The twins are doing really well and probably weighing in over 10 lbs! CRAZY how fast they grow. They are still not sleeping through the night but only getting us up once which isn't too bad. Kyle still wakes up with me so really it only takes about 30 minutes and we are back in bed!!
I have been dreaming lately of moving back to Vancouver and being close to all of our families, being away from them since 2002 has been really hard, I just don't want the kids to grow up so far away from all of their family. But I figure if it is meant to be it will happen... and if not things will happen up here!
Well... off to feed the boys again... the never ending process haha!!

Winter Boogers..

2010-02-16T12:06:00.002-07:00

Ok so gross I know... but I have just realized that come next winter I will have three noses to blow, three noses to pick and three boys with all of their sometimes gross little habits... AND this is only the beginning! I am looking forward to the twin being older and to Trace talking a little more. He is trying soo hard to communicate with us and I can see his frustrations when we don't understand what he is saying.
In great news I won the cloth diaper from my amazing friend Pam's website... for those of you who haven't checked it out look up www.acornsoaks.com she has some awesome diapers all of which she has used on her own little man! She has some great other things to check out as well. I highly recommend the Fuzzy Bunz and the Gro Baby Diapers! I still want to try the Apple Cheeks as they are so cute!
On to the Olympics, I have to say I have been glued to the TV for days watching the olympics and looking for people I might know. So far I have seen three people! CRAZY! It makes me miss home and I wish that we could have been down there to celebrate with everyone else. My dad and brother are heading to the Arials competition next week so keep your eyes open for them!
Well Trace is almost done his lunch which means nap time for the whole family!! YIPEEE! Ok well with my luck the twins will wake up just as Trace goes down sigh.. the story of my life. My mom is still here for another few weeks which is nice I am very thankful for everything that she has done here! She is still in the process of freezing meals for when she is gone and I don't feel like cooking!
Well off to clean peanut butter off of Trace's face... don't know how he managed to get it everywhere!! ahah!

Acorn and Oaks Site!

2010-02-14T10:17:00.002-07:00

Hey everyone!!! Check out a friend on mines site if you are interested in cloth diapering your little one. acornsoaks.com . She carries some amazing products and a lot of the diapers I have used for Trace. So check them out... place an order and tell her I sent you!!!!

Alone... for now.

2010-01-28T10:57:00.004-07:00

Well... mom has gone home for 10 days... she will be back on the 6th of Feb for three more weeks then I am really alone. Not sure what I think about that. Living away from home for the last almost 8 years has been hard, you don't realize how much you miss family until you have access to them everyday for 3 months. When I dropped her off at the airport yesterday I thought I was fine.. then I started driving away. Not so fine. I came home unloaded the kids one at a time and undid the boys from their carseats and then everyone started crying, including myself. I put the twins on the boob and then the only ones left crying were myself and Trace.
Today feels a bit better, the boys only got us up once last night which is nice, although we went to bed later. I am hoping that someday soon they will be able to sleep through the night... I know I am dreaming but a girl can dream right? Trace has been better today as well, he has been getting in 4 molars and 2 have somewhat broken through which is nice. I am dreading twin teething, though I know that is a ways off. Anyways... managed to take a shower and put on makeup (well mascara at least) so I am feeling much better today. But I do have my mom coming back to look forward to. Yesterday I was ready to pick up and move home to vancouver, man I miss that place. I wish we could but I don't see it happening any time soon.
In wonderful news I got my first smile from Jaxon yesterday. Sooo sweet, he looked right at me and smiled! yipeee! I was so happy! I can't wait till they are sitting up and interacting more! My mom called from Vancouver today, it is the first time that Trace has actually talked back on the phone, she was asking him all of the animal sounds he knows and he was answering!! Sooo cute!
The above pics are of the boys with their eyes open finally! Both in one pic and then Trace with his thumbs up face and his favourite hat on.. don't ask why but he loves that container!

Been a While

2010-01-20T13:25:00.004-07:00

Yes this seems to be the story of my life... it has been a while and when do I actually have time to post. I am now a mother of three little boys. The twins Canaan Keith and Jaxon James are 7.5 weeks old! Man time flies. They were born on the 29th of November 2009 and have kept us busy since. Jaxon was born first at 4 lbs 14 oz and Canaan was born 4 minutes later 4 lbs 3 oz. He was our tiny baby and is now the bigger (by 3 oz) of the two!
Trace is adapting well, he is a busy little boy and I am very grateful for the help my mom has provided. She has been living with us since the end of November and will be staying until the end of Feb. As I type she is making spaghetti sauce to be frozen and used after she leaves! The boy are ALL sleeping YIPEEE!! Trace is now sleeping with the side off of his crib as I am hoping to have his out of his crib by the time my mom leaves as the boys will need it. We still have much to purchase but have been overwhelmed by the generosity of our friends, neighbors and even my church as they provided meals for us!
Some of our stories of late are Trace getting MANY teeth all at once, he is currently working on his first molars! That will bring our grand total of teeth to 12. He is running around lots and got spoiled for Christmas. He seems to love the boys and loves to hold and cuddled them. He is sure that they need their soothers at all times and ensures that he FIRMLY hahaha puts them in their mouths. As each day goes by the twins spend more and more time awake and I wonder what I should do to entertain them. I am breast feeding them both as well which is going quite smoothly! I am happy that this has been easier than breastfeeding Trace. Who would have thought.
I know that this blog has been many updates and I hope to share some of our stories as I now have a laptop and can use the computer upstairs!
Here are some updated pics of the twins (yes they are identical) and of Trace ... enjoy!

Yup .. Preggers again... TWIN BOYS!

2009-08-13T08:34:00.002-06:00

To all of you who haven't heard... got the news yesterday.. I am 19 weeks preggers with boys.. not sure if they are identical or not. The news is still sinking in and I didn't sleep much last night.. AND Trace decided to get up early and pee through his diaper.. figures! lol! But thougth I would post a few pics... update everyone! I hope to keep up with this but it has been kinda hard.. maybe once I have a laptop!

Bumps, Bruises and a haircut!!!

2009-03-09T12:18:00.003-06:00

So this weekend was full of new things... on Thursday Trace went to Beaners and got his first haircut... he was such a good boy!!! No crying, screaming or squirming!! yipee!!!!! Then Friday night during his bath he slipped and fell. Well if you ask him the tub jumped up and bit him! haha!
Kyle was bathing Trace and now that he is in a bit bigger of a tub he loves to stand, crawl, and just move around there is no such thing as sitting still anymore. Well during one of these times of movement his hand slipped and he hit his little noggin on the side of it. Got a pretty good sized goose egg out of it as well. Lucky for us he let us put a bit of ice on it and the swelling went down. The next morning he woke up with this (please see pic below) yup a little bit of purple just below his brow bone. And to think the little bugger barely cried!
Well other than his bumps and bruises thing are pretty normal around here.. still -30 out (I am soo ready for spring) and Trace is moving around and climbing on everything. It is taking a bit to get used to, we are always chasing him and he takes off pretty fast.
Well enjoy the pics!
Trace and his first black eye!!!
Right after his haircut

Loves the bay windows especially when they are cold!

Is it Spring yet?

2009-02-20T11:09:00.003-07:00

Well last weekend it got really cold again which stopped our daily walks. I hate it when it is so cold! -30 is toooo much! I always feel super housebound and grumpy by the end of the day. On Saturday Kyle and I dragged our butts out and got food for a Valentines day dinner... mmm RIBS! We had a blast and just relaxed and watched movies that night.
It is finally warming up a bit this week and by warming up I mean -10 instead. But hopefully this is the start of something!
Trace has become more and more mobile.. he has fallen down our two stairs that lead to our mudroom (I was terrified but he seemed ok after a few minutes of crying), he also pulled a wine bottle off of our rack and smashed it on the tile. No glass on him though we are lucky. I have barricaded off parts of our living room upstairs so he pretty much has free range over everything and I don't have to worry about him as much. Since he became mobile there are definitely more bumps, bruises and tears but he handles them pretty well.
Still no teeth for Trace... wondering if he will be the toothless wonder forever!
Anyways thought I would post a small update.. more to come hopefully this weekend!!!!

2009-02-13T10:26:00.002-07:00

Trace at 7.5 Months

Huh??? lol

Trace at 8 months love his new mobility!

Standing at his highchair... loves to chew on the buckles... but no teeth yet!

Me and Trace he is such a cuddler!

Yipeee our new stroller!!!

His first scratches... on his nose, cheek and forhead! This is from veclro!

Trace and his Grampa Winterbottom!

Trace is 8 months... WHAT!

2009-02-13T10:15:00.003-07:00

Yea so I can't believe how time is flying. Trace is 8 months... mobile... getting into everything. And we are loving every minute of it! Trying to take time out to blog has been next to impossible but I thought I would do a little update.
About 3 weeks ago Trace started crawling... he was doing the snake in a way.. and now he is full on crawling no more face plants and man does he MOVE! He has been pulling up on ANYTHING he can find and loves that he is seeing more of our house from his perspective. We are trying to keep up with the baby proofing and I am very thankful that we have pets as most things are already put up and out of the way.
About 3 weeks ago was also when Trace had his first cold, what a nightmare! He was wheezing and coughing and throwing up and gagging on flem.. yuck. And his nose was completely stuffed. The dr. sent us for an Xray of his chest... (that contraption in itself is a nightmare although Trace just laughed and hung out like it was no biggie) and it came back clear. I have to say I LOVE my dr. She took every precaution and just made me feel 100% better about everything. Around the time of his first cold Trace decided that he was done breast feeding. I was devastated. We were only feeding once a day right before bed the rest had already been weened but I don't know if I was ready yet. That feeling of being needed and how only I could put him to bed was something I really treasured. But I was told that since I had gotten my cycle back that sometimes your milk taste changes and the babies don't like it, so that would explain that! But it didn't make it any easier to let go.
In good news I got a new stroller!!!!!!! yes this was very exciting, since I normally strap Trace to me in my Cuddlywrap and walk the dog and couldn't b/c it was so icy out. Our Graco stroller although I loved it for warmer weather had really small and plastic wheels and so getting around in deeper snow was a no go. Therefore Whiskey was not going for walks. I had looked around and decided that I wanted a Phil and Ted's sport. In black! Not only is it a air filled three wheel stroller but it also converts to a 2 baby stroller! YIPEEE! So we have now been on many walks and I have to say Whiskey is happier!
I have so much more to say but Trace is sitting on the floor beside me taking apart my Cd collection... must save them! I hope to post again soon!

Been a While

2009-01-07T22:39:00.003-07:00

Yes so I know it has again been a while since I have blogged. On the 17th of December Kyle and I set out for Vancouver ... and then on the 20th we headed down to Playa Del Carmen Mexico.. it was amazing! And even though Christmas didn't feel much like Christmas it was too warm it still was Christmas. All 19 members of my dad's side of the family were there and it was nice to reconnect with some of the people I have not spent time with in a while. Trace got lots of cuddle time with all of his aunties and uncles and his Oma and grandparents.

Well the vacation started out a little behind ... our airline was 2 hours late so we had to hang around the airport that much longer. Trace was such a trooper. But being that far behind meant that we arrived even later in Cancun and then had a 1 hour bus ride to our hotel. We arrived at about 4 am Cancun time. Needless to say the next day was a write off, I slept a lot of the afternoon and my parents helped out with Trace quite a bit.

We spent the next week eating, drinking and laughing with our family. I finally got to swim with the dolphins and even did the dolphin push it was awesome! As we prepared for our departure from the hotel we found out that again our flights were pushed back and we were not to leave until 4am Cancun time and would not be arriving until 8 am Vancouver time. THAT SUCKED! I couldn't believe it and didn't know how Trace was going to do. Again he was a trooper never fussed and was just an amazing baby. I thank God for having this amazing child!

When we finally got home there was no rest.. we picked up our dog and headed back to my parents house where we got ready to go to a friends open house. Even though we were exhausted it was good to see friends and have a drink.

Sooo Kyle has headed back home and I am still in Vancouver preparing for my best friends wedding. I am weaning Trace as well and am down to 2 breast feedings a day and 2 to 3 formula feeds a day!!! It is a very sad but freeing time as well.

In the next couple of days Trace and I are super busy, we are visiting old friends, family and preparing for my best friends big day! I hope to finally stay up to date on these... but you never know life gets soo busy.

Oh and before I forget... Trace is almost crawling!!! He moves around and pulls himself around, he rocks back and forth on his hands and knees and pulls himself in a push up position. CRAZY!!! My little man is mobile!!!

I will post pics later!! Bye for now!

2008-12-06T14:43:00.002-07:00

Soooo Trace is 6 months!! I can't believe how time flies and how I seem to have less and less time to blog! Here is what has been happening around here... Trace is eating! Yup as of last Saturday he has started his cereal. And man was he ready, he was so excited when I sat down in front of him with my little bowl. Tonight is the first time we give him cereal for dinner as well. We are pretty excited with all of these new things and know that next on the list of things do is get him mobile. Trace loves to roll around on the floor to get to different toys around the room.. you turn your head for 2 seconds and he has rolled across the room.. I can't believe that my little man is growing up already!
We have been lucky enough to have a wonderful snuggly little man.. who when he wakes up gives the BIGGEST hugs and open mouth smooches! Still sleeping through the night too which has turned out to be a HUGE blessing to me! I don't work well on no sleep! haha!
As December and Christmas approach we are planning our vacation. First we drive down to Vancouver, then we fly to Playa Del Carmen Mexico for a family vacation.. all 19 of us will be there. We are so excited and feel so blessed to be heading to a nice warm area for Trace's first Christmas. After we come home from Mexico we stay in Vancouver for another week to visit with Kyle's family and friends and then he takes off and I get to stay for 2 more weeks!!!! I am so excited. My best friend is getting married and I am her Maid of Honor! Sooo a busy few months are coming up for us and we are hoping to make it through. And once we finally come home we hope to relax and watch Trace grow and develop even more.
Well I hope to update again soon.. but who knows things get busy!!! Will post pics of our vaca once I get back!! Trace at 6 months just finishing his very first meal!

YUMMY!!!! He was pretty excited!

HEY! Check me out standing in my crib!

2008-11-02T16:48:00.002-07:00

Trace sitting all by himself!
Look at me!!!!!

Dressed up for halloween as a teddy bear!

Dad with Trace

Me and the little man

Granny and Trace.. love this picture.

He is ready for his closeup! He was grabbing at the camera

Trace being a ham!

First Halloween

2008-11-02T16:35:00.002-07:00

Well it again has been a while since I have written on here. A lot has happened... my mom has come and gone (she was such a big help too I miss her!!), we had our first Halloween and my cousin had a little baby girl!

My mom visiting was so much fun... we had a blast, I kept her busy and she showed me easy ways to cook new things, K is pretty excited about that. Trace just loved spending time with Granny as well, she got him to really giggle for the first time and his eyes just light up whenever he hears her voice on the phone. Thank goodness for speaker phone!

Halloween was a lot of fun as well, we had a few neighborhood toddlers visit our door and Trace got dressed up as a bear and handed out candy with us. He was such a trooper and we had a lot of fun.
Things have been pretty good lately... we are hoping to start Trace on some rice cereal in the next few weeks... maybe at 5 and a half months. He is reaching for our food when we are eating but still sleeping through the night so I know he is not quite ready yet. I don't know if I am ready for the next stage! I have a book with a bunch of recipes and I am hoping to make most of my own food for him. We will see how that goes!!!
I am posting some pics in the next blog to show some updates... enjoy!

28?????

2008-10-08T21:06:00.003-06:00

Ok so I am 28 this week... this Friday to be exact. I know that this sounds silly and I am still in my 20's and should feel young and vibrant but all I can think of is... I am 2 years away from be 30... CRAZY!!! To top things off I have decided to make a turkey for all of our friends for thanksgiving this year. It is my first one so I am more than a little nervous... I am having everyone bring a little something and I am making turkey, stuffing, and I made some fresh buns tonight! They are sooo yummy!!! And if that doesn't make me crazy enough I painted half of our kitchen, our dining room, living room and entry over the weekend and the last couple of days. Now we are hanging pics and trying to make our house look like our house by the weekend. I was so excited that Kyle had hockey tonight, Trace is in bed and I can finally sit down and blog and relax for a bit.
Trace seems to be a little on the fussy side today, drooling lots so I believe that he has started the whole teething process. Who knows guess we will see. I figure mom can help me out next week when she comes for a visit. I am still so excited about that! We had out 4 month check up this week at a new Dr... that was a useless visit. She did nothing for me and I was not impressed, and it was a bit of drive to get there... luckily I got on the phone the next day and found a Dr taking patients just down the street from me. That means in the summer time we can walk to regular check ups! I just hope that I like this Dr as it is so hard to find ones that are actually taking patients.
Anyways thought I would post some pics of Trace.. he went to his first birthday party on the 4th. One of my girlfriends from high school also lives in Edmonton and her little girl turned 1!! It was a lot of fun and I can't wait until Trace can actually play on the equipment at Gymboree!!

K and Trace hanging out.
"Standing" in his green inner tube.
Getting tired at the end of the party.
Sleeping on his side like a big boy after the party... he was sooo tired!

Finally!!!

2008-09-29T10:11:00.004-06:00

Well Finally is right! We are finally getting Trace on a bit of a schedule!!! yipeeeee!!! He is currently fighting sleep so I thought I would come downstairs, with my cup of coffee and new pics in tow and blog since it has been so long. We are finally in our new house and making it ours. I am unpacked except for the house decorations and candles and stuff, we actually have a spare bedroom with a bed.. no more air mattress for guests!!! Trace's room is finally finished and we have moved him in. Last night was his third night in his new room and he seems to love it and sleeps in a little bit more than before. So we are going to start putting him to bed a little earlier and actually have time with just K and I!!!
Our trip to Vancouver was amazing, it was busy and at times overwhelming but it was so nice to see everyone and I swear I have enough clothes to last Trace's first year. Although shopping for him is always nice too. My parents were great too, we always stay at their house and usually I am ready to go home, not this time, I wanted to stay longer. To have just a little bit of help and company during feedings, while changing diapers, while bathing was so nice. They really were an huge help. We also got to meet most of our friends little ones and that was great. They were all different ages and sizes and just to watch either what Trace had already gone through or where he was about to be was pretty cool.
In current news, tomorrow we have his second round of shots... yuck I am not looking forward to that at all. Kyle will be out of town and so it will be just me dealing with the little guy. I always feel so bad for him. Oh and we have started cloth diapering!! I love it! I have 12 pocket all in one diapers and those will last just under 2 days. So we still use a couple disposable ones here an there but if we are at home it is cloth all the way. They are so cute too, we bought Fuzzibunz and LOVE them. They don't leak, and they are so soft. When we go to Kyle's hockey games we use them and he stays even warmer!
In terms of milestones for Trace, he was 13 pounds 11 ounces 3 weeks ago so we will see what he is at tomorrow when we measure him. He is raspberrying and chatting lots especially when he is getting his diaper changed. He rolls from his back onto his side so hopefully soon we will be rolling onto our tummies! And he loves to watch his daddy play hockey.. he even follows the plays around soo cute! He is trying to sit up and pulls his head forward while in his car seat, while laying on the ground and when sitting on the couch with us. I can't believe how fast he is growing and what an amazing little man he is! Trace watching his daddy play hockey for the first time!
Hanging out in his bumbo chair while we plot out our new kitchen cupboards.
Me and the little guy .. he spit up all over me after this pic! lol
Making bubbles... he loves to do this now!

On Vacation

2008-08-31T19:03:00.002-06:00

Ok so yes it has been a long long long while! Trace is three months this upcoming week.... CRAZY time flies! He is turning into mr independent, only needs me for feeding and cuddles haha. Well maybe a little more than that. Trace in the last 2 days has flipped onto his side, and found his tongue. He is Gene Simmons I swear it! My mom says by the end of Sept he should be flipping over onto his tummy... can't believe that.

We are currently in Vancouver visiting my parents K's dad and a bunch of our friends. I have finally met my beautiful niece and all of the other children born to our friends this year. Trace has been carted all over the place in the last week and is dealing so well with everything we really are super lucky to have such an amazing baby. He is sleeping a bit longer every day and we are just loving him. Oh we also got our first family pics taken. If you go to www.frozenreflections.com and go to featured and under Trace you will see our family pics. We love them! Maria is an awesome photographer and now my brother and sister in law want to do the same thing with our little niece.

So many things have happened since I last posted that I don't even know what to write. We have moved to the Edmonton area and love it, the animals seem to be adjusting well, K is loving his new position at work and already doing quite well. Here's hoping I don't have to go back to work!!! Or I can do something at home or part time. Oh and the boys have gotten together and decided that since we all had babies around the same time this year that we should do the same for next year. So we are supposedly starting to try again next Sept... well at least I get our 2 year anniversary preggers free! haha!

I will update more and with more pics once we are home. I have so many pics!!!

Smiling!

2008-07-17T17:38:00.002-06:00

Well Trace has been smiling at me for the past week or so... trying to catch it on camera seems to be a whole other hurdle! haha! He has also started to talk to himself when he is sitting in his swing or in his crib, I take out the video and yup he shuts up! Ahh well I will get him one of these days! His smile is so precious and I can't believe that he is already 6 weeks! Time is flying and I already want it to slow down!
In good news I am sleeping through the night which is awesome and we are moving in two weeks and I feel prepared! I have all of our extras packed and a list of other things that I need to pack in the next week, then the last couple of days will be spent packing up our dishes and glasses. I still can't believe that we are leaving. As excited as I am this is our first house, and so many other firsts happened in this house, first child, first dog, all the building we did (well K did!) and just feeling pride of ownership. I am super excited for our new house, it is bigger and I get a garage yipeee!!! But I have grown pretty close to some people up here and it is going to be really hard to leave them. You know who you are lol!
Well I have posted more pics below. I got the end of a smile and some pics from Uncle L's visit. That was pretty precious. To watch my little bro with Trace was so special! Plus he is the bro that we think Trace kinda looks like! The end of the smile! 6 weeks!!!!
Uncle L after napping with Trace (who is obviously still napping!)
His very first bottle of breast milk.
Just chilling, he was so cute I had to take a pic!

New House!

2008-07-11T18:50:00.003-06:00

This is how he likes to take his naps!
In his SUPERCHARGED hot rod car shirt!
In one of his sleeping outfits.... so precious!
The swing! I love it! So does he!!!

So we have finally, after 3 weekends in a row of going to Edmonton, found a house! The inspection is done and the mortgage is approved and we are goooood to go! I am so excited to move and so relieved to finally have it done! I have started packing up this house and find it sad walking around and seeing all of our house decorations and paintings not there anymore. It is just strange.

In other news my brother is finally going to come out for a visit. He is in Edmonton with his wife and is coming up for two whole nights to visit with Trace and who knows maybe he will feel the need to move a few boxes that I have packed down to the basement. I am hoping to pack a little more this weekend, but who knows.

K and I have invested in a swing for Trace, it is the rain forest fisher price swing and my goodness do I LOVE it. I can get ready in the mornings and he is just so content to sit and look at all the bright colors that he no longer fusses when I am not holding him. The other nice thing is that I don't have to worry about the cats trying to sit on his lap while he is in it as he is off the ground. Such a relief and I can't believe we didn't buy one before.

Well I have posted some more new pics of Trace so enjoy!

Time Flies..

2008-07-03T17:18:00.003-06:00

Trace in his outfit from Auntie Mel and Uncle Nate
Not so happy about the family pic!
Lukas (3 months) and Trace (3.5 weeks) my son seems to be punching the other kids already! lol
Tummy time with his new buddy!
His bath in Auntie Lisa's sink!

Wow I can't believe that it has been a month already.. tomorrow is Trace's one month. I have been a mommy for a whole entire month and I have made it. Trace is doing well and I am loving it! We have finally bought a house as well... signed the paperwork today. Our house sold in 3 days and ever since we have been looking down in the Edmonton area for our new one! I love it. We are going to do a little work on the kitchen but other than that and a little paint in the bedrooms it is perfect! BIG back yard, double car garage and over 2000 sq feet of living space! yipeeee to a lot more room!

We went down to Edmonton 3 weekends in a row and I have to say that I am excited to spend a weekend here... haven't done that since Trace's very first weekend. Last weekend was our long weekend being Canada day and we stayed with friends of ours and got to catch up with other friends and meet their little one as well! I posted some pics of the weekend. Well Trace is fussing so I should go but enjoy the pics!

More Pics!

2008-06-26T11:08:00.005-06:00

So I don't have a lot of time for a post right now but I thought I would put up some new pics...K and I are heading back to Edmonton again this weekend (3rd weekend in a row) and I have been promised a house this weekend so here's hoping! I am tired of doing the 4 now 5 to 6 hour drive every weekend. Trace seems to love the car rides and enjoys his nice long naps while we are in the car. He is such an amazing baby and continues to amaze us daily. I feel so blessed!!! Whiskey babysitting Trace for us! haha
Now he loves his baths!

Our little happy camper!

Busy Busy......

2008-06-20T11:42:00.009-06:00

Grampa and Trace having a nap.
Trace at 13 days old!

First family pic!

Mmmmm babies breath, love it!

Grampa and Trace at WestEd Mall

Grama and Trace cuddling time!

Ok so as expected life has been a little busy these last 2 weeks! Trace is home and healthy, and a wonderful baby. I only get up once during the night for a feeding and then I am up again around 8 am for his first morning feeding. I am spoiled and I know it but soo thankful for added rest! He is getting more and more alert during the day and I am loving just looking at him.

Grama came for a visit last week for a whole week... what a huge help! She even got up and kept me company during my 3am feedings. We were still working on the whole latching thing and things were getting very frustrating and painful at times and it was nice to have her there... even if I did lash out at her a couple of times. Although after talking with my dad about a few things I am looking at approaching difficult situations better and asking God for guidance to do so.

K and I have been looking at houses in Edmonton, last weekend we headed down and Grampa H flew in to meet up with us! It was amazing, to have both of my parents around for a weekend was such a huge help. Especially since we were looking at houses and constantly getting in and out of the car. Trace was a real trooper!

I have posted some updated pics as well, as instructed by Anns! lol! I promise I will try to keep them updated!

Trace Pictures

2008-06-08T20:33:00.005-06:00

Trace all ready to go home!
In Granny Janny's going home outfit!

Just the cutest thing EVER!!!

That is one proud Daddy!!!

BLUE BOOTIES!!!

2008-06-08T17:49:00.002-06:00

So I will go into more detail later but K and I want to welcome the arrival of Trace Gordon 8 pounds 9 ounces born on the 4th of June!!! We were sent home from the hospital 2 days later and found ourselves back there again last night as Trace was a little on the jaundice side. Lots of feedings later and 2 big pees and we were let go without light therapy!
Well maybe I will go into the detail of the birth... for those of you who are slightly squeemish please skip.
So thought I was getting contractions every 5 minutes on Tuesday night... go into labour and delivery and turns out they were false. AGAIN! Since my dr had already said she would induce me on Wednesday I stayed the night. I was 4 cm dilated and the baby was fully engaged. My dr broke my water around 930 am and I was told to go for an hour walk... umm yea 15 minutes later I was back upstairs with some intense contractions. Since my blood pressure was so high they decided to put me right on the epidural to bring it down. That only made it go higher. So by 230 that day I was ready to start pushing Trace out. Turns out he was face up... yuck... and did not want to turn. By the then the Epidural was not working as well... it was pretty bad. After 2 hours of pushing and 3 strong contractions while pushing and having the vacuum Trace was born. So awesome the feeling of finally having him out. Well after that I had a little trauma of my own, had a post pardom hemorrhage and had to go the OR as my placenta wasn't releasing. I lost quite a bit of blood and they were starting to talk about doing a transfusion. Luckily I didn't have to and am now on iron supplements to get my blood levels back up.
Well we are home and doing fine... feeding is a bit of a challenge but we will persevere! Thanks to everyone for your prayers I am just so happy to have met my little man after all this time!

Yea for the Long Weekend!!!

2008-05-15T15:23:00.002-06:00

So this weekend is the long weekend... sooo excited as it is also our one year wedding anniversary! I have been promised a trip to the Keg for dinner mmmmm prime rib and crab legs!! And maybe a trip to Dawson Creek on Sunday for some White Spot. K is still out of town but returning tomorrow around 4ish and I am pretty excited about that to. This week has gone by pretty quickly as I had prayed it would and pretty uneventful. As in no trips to the L and D and the baby has stayed in! yipeee!!!!!
Wednesday I hung out with a good friend in the afternoon and it was so nice to get out of the house. I relaxed and chatted and as usual laughed my head off with her, it was such a nice way to pass the afternoon. In the evening there was America's Next Top Model of course so I went over to another friends house (who made an amazing blue cheese dip yum!) and watched the best girl win! Sooo happy that Whitney won ... cheers to the first full figured Top Model! Keeping busy really made the day fly by and being midweek gave me something to look forward to all week.
Today I had my going away lunch from my work, as tomorrow would have been my last day. It was a nice turnout! I really enjoyed myself and the food..although I always enjoy food! haha! They had a nice card that everyone signed and it was just nice to see their faces. I am really going to miss some of the people from work. Who woulda thought! lol.
So now I just have one more sleep until my hubby is home and we celebrate our anniversary... and one week until my bestest comes into town. So many things to look forward to. I know that these next few weeks will fly by and then I finally get to meet my bean!
Anyways that is all for now... I am heading back to my rocking chair and my cross stitching and magazines... oh what an exciting afternoon I have planned!!!

An Update... yea I know it has been a while!

2008-05-11T11:03:00.003-06:00

Ok so I thought it had been a while since I posted pics... for those of you that don't know I have been taken off of work by my doctor because of my feet and the risk of toxemia. My blood pressure for now is fine so I am not too worried... just bored haha! K and I went to our prenatal class on Saturday and although it scared the living daylights out of me it also put me at ease. So many things that K and I had discussed and talked about and decided on were things that the nurse said we should talk about. There was a whole mix of people there all shapes sizes and ages so it was nice to see that as well.

So went into the L and D twice these last two weeks, first time was because of my discomfort and the second time was due to some really bad cramps in my stomach. Both times the baby was doing AWESOME, and it was nice to see layout of the L and D ward. Since my dr was out of town I had to go into her fill in dr on Friday to get a prescription (gotta love bladder infections) and he had an ultrasound machine in his office!!!! So I got a quick peek at the babe. He also (K WARNING TMI FOR SOME PEOPLE) did an internal and found out that the baby was completely dropped (I believe his words were "oh there is the babies head!!") and that I was 2 to 3 cm dilated. So of course I got excited as this is part that I don't have to go through later... and I can be like this for a month before I go into labour. It just means the baby is pretty much ready and raring to go! Anyways so I called my mom and of course freaked her out... oops... sorry mom! And then got an email from dad saying to hold onto the baby until after they go on vacation... so sorry dad! haha! Of course he was joking and it was nice to get a laugh.

So K is going to Minnesota this week Mon-Fri... so gotta hold onto this little one until after he gets back, then we celebrate our one year wedding anniversary yipeee!!!! Can't believe all that has happened in a year!

Ok will update more later but below are some new pics.

This is me at 35 weeks 3 days!!!!

Purple Feet... Is this bad?

2008-04-25T15:02:00.007-06:00

Ahh the start of stretch marks... 33 weeks 1 day!

Front and somewhat centre... 33 weeks 1 day!

Side view 33 weeks 1 day

The Cankles

Well in regards to the title... yes my feet are swollen and sometimes purple... after a shower my legs are purple too. I am guessing that this is not a good thing and should be brought up at my next dr's appt. I know that it is probably the water retention in my legs cutting off my circulation or not allowing circulation so I try to keep my feet up as much as possible. Now this is hard because there is always so much to be done.

In regards to baby bean things seem to be going well, he/she is constantly moving and shaking it up in my belly and making its presence known. I am seriously getting excited to meet the little babe! I am also ready to not be preggers anymore, I know I will miss the feel of the bean moving and stuff but right now I feel like a cooked turkey.

Some of my friends have made plans to come out around the time of birth which is awesome! My bestest A is coming out late in May and I know that she will try everything in her power to get me to go into labour that weekend! haha! Then as soon as I do go into labour I phone my mom and dad and they are jumping in the car for the 12 hour trip up here to help us out!! So awesome! Now the even greater thing about having all of these visits is that we are planning a move to Edmonton area after the babe is born and everyone seems to want to help me pack... what nice people. A friend from Edmonton L even offered to come up here after the baby is born and help me pack and stuff. Plus she would be a person to help me unpack on the other side. I am just blown away by what amazing friends and family I am blessed to have!

Anyways just thought I would do a quick update, other than strange swelling things are going well and I have my next dr's appt next Friday!!! I posted some pics of myself this week too... oh and of my cankles to all of you that are curious! You know you wanna see them! haha!

32 Weeks.... slowly but surely!

2008-04-14T16:29:00.004-06:00

Well I am 32 weeks today. 4 more weeks till full terms, 32 days from Mat leave and 56 days from due date. Can you tell that the countdowns are on? After miscarrying and then getting preggers 4 weeks later... by the time I deliver I will have been pregnant for almost a year. now that is an awful long time if you ask me!

K is doing pretty well, he is massaging my feet almost daily as they tend to get pretty painfully swollen, I have not worn socks for about 4 weeks now as they cut off my circulation. I am looking forward to resting a little bit while on mat leave and living in my sweat pants! Lame I know=, but these are the things I look forward to.

Went in for my checkup today, measuring 33 cms so all is good, and the heartbeat was about 135 so it has come down a bit again. I was told anything between 110 and 160 is normal so that calmed me down a little bit! Anyways that is all for now... oh had a dream that I went into early labor.. that was kinda freaky... anything after 36 weeks I am game for but not before that!

These are me at 31 weeks!!!!!

Love

2008-04-03T10:06:00.003-06:00

Since I can remember my family has always been one of complete love, yes we had hiccups, barriers and high rivers to cross but I ALWAYS new that I was loved unconditionally. These last couple of weeks have been a little on the hard side. I have realized how much I leaned on my parents and now lean on K. I understand (before my friends comment otherwise) that I am a very strong person, but some things require help. (Like getting out of my couch :-) Anyways back to the topic at hand, if there is one thing that I take from my parents it is the ability to love, and to love openly, to not hide it or push it to the side. But to wear the love for my husband and children where everyone can see it and to never be ashamed of it.
I have realized over these last couple of weeks how all of this baby prep is slightly overwhelming when you don't have family around you. I call my parents sometimes daily, and usually about nothing but I enjoy keeping that link. While out with my friend L and K to shop for baby gear it really felt like someone was missing, my mom. I wished that she could have been there, to help and to push my buttons.. which is what usually happens when her and K are around haha! I always figured I would be doing some of these things with her but living 12 hours or 2 flights away really puts a damper on that. I do however look forward to her visit in June when I come home with the bean from the hospital.

Mission Successful!

2008-03-25T10:03:00.005-06:00

As stated in my title ... Mission Successful! After driving for 4 hours to Edmonton going for a quick shop at the Bay to see what they have... Not Helpful At ALL!!! The woman that was trying to help us didn't know the answer to ANY of our questions... seriously.. don't work in the Nursery department then! We went to our friends house to chill for the evening and took off around noon the next day for Babies R Us. The ladies there were AMAZING!!! So incredibly helpful, we decided to buy our stroller and our crib there. We bought a Graco stroller and I LOVE it already.. the exact one is posted below and the crib is a little darker than that but it converts to a double bed!!! Which is AWESOME! We ended up going to The Bay to buy our accessories and bought the awesome bedding below. Spent a lot of money of course but it feels so good to have these things done! We also bought a dresser at Ikea and are going to set it up for a change table as well. It is the perfect height!
So in terms of how I am feeling... other than the cankles from shopping on Friday I have been feeling alright. I have a massage scheduled for tonight and I am really looking forward to her getting some of the water out of my legs ... gotta love water retention! I am having problems getting out of our couch but I blame the couch more than me, it is one of those old sucks you in couches. I prefer my glider rocker but the cats seem to really like that one too! They have taken to sleeping there instead of on our bed, it is pretty funny to see! I have super long hair and I now dread taking the shower to wash my hair it is exhausting, but has to be done. K is pretty good with helping me do things, he helps me get up from the couch or laughs at me one of the two, he carries all the heavy stuff since I can't anymore. Although I do feel frustrated sometimes... I want to help with things and I don't feel like I am doing my part and poor K has to do all the heavy stuff. We set up the dresser last night and took down the desk that was in that room so I feel that we have accomplished something. Have I rambled enough... I have more pics to post of me at 29 weeks but those will have to wait as I left the camera at home. So I guess there is more to come!
Only 52 days until Mat leave!!!!!!!

Shopping!!!!!!

2008-03-20T09:59:00.002-06:00

So today my K and I are heading off to Edmonton for some much needed baby furniture shopping....yipeeee!!! The only thing is that I don't last to long on my feet and by the end of a regular day they are usually cankles. YUCK! I should post a pic of them from Feb.. they were pretty bad. And yet I find them mildly amusing. I can't even wear my wedding rings anymore so I am currently wearing a ring that I bought for Kyle when we first moved in together.
Ok back to shopping... soooo excited!!! We are hoping to be able to pick up our crib, dresser/change table and stroller! I am very excited about this stroller. I guess I am becoming a bit of a grown up after all I never thought I would be excited about something like this!
Well in one hour we will be on the road for the BORING 4 hour drive, which is immediately followed by us signing our taxes, K stopping by the branch down there and then finally off to the Bay to see what we love and if anyone has it in stock. That is our other problem. This stuff we want is all special order and they don't always have it in stock, which means that we can't be as picky if we want to pick it up this weekend. Ahh well... our friends are coming up in a couple weeks and they can always bring it with them! Yay for friends!
So other than the water retention I have been feeling ok.. a little tired and I am up usually about 3 or 4 times a night! YUCK! I have a heating pad that comes everywhere with me! It is my life saver right now.. makes work a little more comfortable. Oh and also found out that the baby is sitting head down! yipee! Heartbeat is 142 which is nice and healthy and some people say it means boy! K is pretty happy about that.
Anyways I am off but I will post more pics when I get home.. hopefully with all of our new furniture!!!!

2008-03-12T20:56:00.002-06:00

So here is another updated pic... taken at 27 weeks! I am tired... I get up toooo many times during the night to either pee or cry from a silly leg cramp. Things are going better, now that K is home I don't feel so alone which is nice. 9 more days and we head to edmonton for some good visiting and some shopping for baby funiture which I am really excited about! Anyways I will write more later just wanted to put this on. Oh and went for my Diabetes test today.. praying that all went well!!!!

Here's to the Third Trimester

2008-03-10T14:18:00.002-06:00

27 weeks today!!! Man that just seems crazy, and yet I am having a hard time being happy today, or for the whole weekend for that matter. For those of you who know me you know that my grampa passed away last month. I don't know if I am feeling down because of that, (it has almost been one month) or if I am battling depression... again. K was gone this weekend which might have contributed to my feelings a lot, I don't really know. I think I have been leaning a little too heavily on him this past couple of months. I am not sure if I should be doing that and yet I can't seem to stand without him. Funny I always considered myself a very independent person, my family considers me to be a very strong person. I try to live up to this but I am finding it exhausting. I know that my family does not expect this of me, they never would they are amazing. It is me pushing myself past my limits, I am good at that. I don't know when to say enough is enough, I need a break. I am tired of being sore all the time, and I am so scared to be a mom. I am sure that most moms to be feel this way I even have a friend back home in Van who went through the same loss as me while she was pregnant with her first. It is just today and this last weekend I couldn't handle it. Deep down I know that I am going to love this baby, and that I will get through this. That this baby will have the best father in the world, he is amazing. That just because I feel this way today doesn't mean I will always feel this way. I just need to deal with it and take a break.
I know that this is normally a happy place for me to post but today I just needed to get a few things out. I hope that my honestly doesn't scare people away. Please keep me in your prayers and K as well. I know I need it.

73 Days till mat leave!!!

2008-03-04T15:41:00.003-07:00

Yea so I am excited... excited to start fixing up the nursery, excited to start being a mommy and excited just in life right now. I am also excited that Starbucks made a new frap flavour... mmmm honey Frap... yum! The countdown is on 97 days till my due date, 73 days till my maternity leave and 17 days until we get to go to Edmonton to do some baby shopping! yipeee! Yes my life revolves around how many sleeps until the next big event... what can I say I was born a dork! haha!
Yesterdays doc appointment went really well, heartbeat is still at 148 bpm, the baby is growing nicely and my uterus measured 28 cm I think. I have to start going every two weeks now so that is going to be nice... every two weeks I get to hear my baby's little heartbeat and ask questions about things and figure how I am going to do this whole birthing thing. I am sooo nervous. I spoke with a friend last night who has gone through both a regular birth and an emerg c-section. To look at her and see that she pulled through and she has two wonderful (although quirky) boys makes me feel better about it. I know I can get through anything and that I have been blessed lately with some wonderful friends up here in Grande Prairie. Two girls that I know I can count on and who are sooo extremely opposite that you always get all perspectives when you talk with them. Come to think of it I think that all three of us are totally completely different personalities from each other, we all seem to have different outlooks on life and I think that is what makes it interesting being friends. I honestly don't know what I did in this town for the 2 and a half years that I didn't know these ladies! So thanks!!!!
Swimming.... yup started swimming, one of my aunts told me to do it as did my uncle who is a doctor. I was having problems doing any other sort of exercise and it was awesome last Sat to feel weightless and be able to "work out" for almost an hour! So I think that this will be a weekly if not twice a week thing.
Other than that no big news... got a horrible leg cramp last night when I was sleeping... luckily kyle was home or I would have woken him up with my terrible scream. I swear it went on FOREVER!! ahh well!

New Pictures

2008-02-27T15:30:00.003-07:00

I thought I would post a few pics of me at 25 weeks. I haven't taken pics in a couple of weeks and was blown away by how much I have grown. CRAZY! Also discovered last night a totally new craving... on top of the Nibs, Croissant donut things and Carmel Fraps from Starbucks I am craving these Apple Pear Hybrid type fruit.. so yummy and juicy. Have to stock up on more! At least the are better for me than the other three things right?

Back at Home

2008-02-26T13:21:00.002-07:00

So been back home since last Thursday, hate being at work. It sucks, and I find myself feeling angry sometimes at my boss. I know that a lot of my friends and family read this blog but I just need to spit this out. My boss is the same age as my grampa when he passed, I sometimes find it hard to look at him and not be angry that he is here and grampa isn't. I don't get it, I understand that this is how life works and that my grampa is in a WAY better place with an awesome workshop for him to work in but it doesn't make it any easier. Man I miss him.
In other news I am feeling HUGE and the baby seems to be resting on the right side of my body. Yesterday evening we were sitting at friends house and all of the sudden it felt like a knife was being SHOVED in between my ribs. I started yelling pretty much until it finally went away. What an awful feeling, I have decided that this baby is a boy since I don't think a girl would do that to me. It seems as though this child is constantly shoving a hand up my ribs but has positioned itself so that it is no longer on my bladder. I honestly think that I will take the bladder kicks over the hand shoving.
14 weeks 6 days to go! Man I am excited to meet this malicious little child haha and see what kind of personality they will develop!

ps... i really want that mint 3 musketeers bar they showed on tv yesterday!

Hard Times

2008-02-22T10:51:00.003-07:00

So I know it has been a while but things have been a little rough around the house, now before anyone jumps to conclusions everything with the pregnancy is going just fine. I feel great although not as mobile and the baby is really a mover and a shaker! He/she has taken to dancing on my bladder while shoving a hand up my ribs on the right side. Lovely.... and it feels even better!

As I said in an earlier blog I had a family member who was not doing so well health wise. My grampa had been going through some issues with his heart and therefore had to have open heart surgery, he had a quad bypass 17 years earlier and had been in amazing health since then, always strong and always willing to kick our butts if we sat in his chair! In the last couple of years his energy has declined so far that he would get out of breath just walking across the room. After many tests he was diagnosed with Pericarditus (not sure how to spell it) which is the lining around the heart that contains fluid to help lubricate the pumping of the heart. After his bypass he slowly developed scar tissue on this thin membrane which in turn constricts the pumping of the heart. This is why he was running low on energy. So the doctors decided to do open heart surgery to remove this membrane (an even riskier surgery than the bypass) so that his heart could expand and fully pump again. The surgery itself went very well but his heart did not expand after they removed the membrane. He passed away as my uncle said a couple of heart beats shy of valentines day. We were all at the hospital and were able to comfort each other. I have realized in these last couple of weeks that I truly come from a family of love, my grandparents love was/is true and pure, I can only hope to have a love like theirs! Every family has their struggles but watching mine come together was a gift. I am so thankful that I got to be a part of these last couple weeks both with my grampa and in the grief of losing him. My last memories of him are so sweet and I will cherish them always.

Well thanks for listening. I have posted a pic from our wedding of myself and K with my grandparents.

Feeling Large and in Charge!

2008-02-04T21:00:00.001-07:00

Ok so feeling pretty large these past few days... this is going to be a quick post... prison break is on and I want to spend some time with K. Thought I would post a pic and inform everyone that I am now having some problems with coordination... getting in and out of K's truck is pretty comical as is getting off the couch. Went to the dr's today and the heart rate is now at 149 or 147 I can't remember which one but it has gone down.. and some would say that means boy!!! Which makes K's day!
Below I put a pic of me today, please pardon the horrible hair I had just finished blow drying it and it gets a little poofy! Hahaha!

Me at 22 weeks!!!

Getting Bigger!!!

2008-01-29T21:12:00.000-07:00

A pic of me at 21 weeks 1 day.... as you can see I have grown a bit since week 18!!!

Yesterday was my 21st week of being pregnant... how exciting... actually it is quite exciting K and I went to Costco today (my fav place!!!) and since they were on sale we bought wipes... 720 of them to be exact... but we figured they are on sale might as well! I think it kinda spooked both of us as it is the first thing we have really bought for the bean!! I mean I bought a sleeper but this is 720 WIPES!

On a serious note and to anybody who wants to keep us in your prayers, we have a family member who is not doing well. He has been in and out of the hospital since K and I got married last May and the hardest thing for me is not being there for this person. I love him sooo much and feel like I am out of the loop up here and that I am not getting the quality time that I want. (crap now I am crying again) This person is so special to me in so many different ways and I have always thought of this person and his faith as something to look up to. I have prayed daily for a miracle and want our family to know that they are constantly on my mind. Sometimes I hate being so far away (for those of you who don't know we live 12 hours away from our families) and hate being "cut off" from the family life that is so important to both K and I. So for those of you out there please pray for our family and for this amazing person.

Realizing how fragile things can be and then getting the comment from a friend (yes I will call you a friend because even though I have not met you, you have been on my mind a lot and I love reading your blog) have made me treasure being pregnant even more. She said to treasure my pregnancy and I have just been looking forward to June when I will finally meet this bean that I have not taken as much time lately to appreciate what is currently going on inside me. So thank T for that note it came at the perfect time! (and I am so happy that you love the name I am sooo stuck on Trace! Although K brought up Daylen the other day which I like as well).

The Halfway Mark!!!

2008-01-21T11:01:00.000-07:00

Yipeeee we made it to the halfway mark! I still can't believe it. When I feel a kick or a roll going on I am still in amazement that this is OUR baby growing inside me. CRAZY! K and I were sitting on the couch last night watching a movie before his hockey game and suddenly I almost jumped off of the couch... and of course got the "what the heck" look from K . I had just gotten the hardest kick ever to my poor bladder and it surprised me at the same time. Too funny... maybe you had to be there haha!
So things seem to be going well, I get regular beatings from the bean which let me know that he/she is still ok in there. I have been having horrible thoughts of things going wrong with the baby but every 4 weeks when I hear the heartbeat I feel a little better. I have not received a call from my Dr about the ultrasound so I assume all went well which is AWESOME!!! Next appt is on the 4th of February so we will have to wait until then.
My hips were better this week. Last week after walking through the bush with 4 dogs and 5 other people and then heading to Costco afterwards I could barely walk. The pain was terrible and felt like my hips were being ripped apart... yet one more thing to talk to the Dr about. I do get pain if I sit for too long or stand for too long or walk for too long so I try to mix things up a bit and it seems to be working. I am sleeping better (thank goodness) and finally getting used to sleeping on my left side. Although K still hates all the pillows he understands that I need them for support and that come June/July I WILL be back on my tummy sleeping. Man I miss that!
So lately we have been thinking about names, as there are so many of our friends due this year we are pretty open about what we like so that nobody else takes them! haha! If we have a girl we are looking at using K's moms name Robyn in memory of her. So it would be Robyn Marie (Marie being my middle name) and if it is a boy we love the name Trace Gordon (Gordon is my dad's middle name). There are others on the list right now but these are the two that I REALLY love! K has a list but he has it at work and can never remember the names that he has written down. So for now these are the top names. I also love Tristan for a boy or Sedona for a girl... but again we will see... we would like to have a few names for each and then when the baby pops out be able to look at him/her and decide.

The Best Day Ever!!!!

2008-01-16T11:35:00.000-07:00

So as my title says... yesterday was the best day ever! It was amazing! At 1pm we walked into the imaging place and I was brought to the back to get started. My bladder wasn't that bad and I was comfortable the whole time. She took quite a while doing the testing and I could feel why... the bean was dancing around as she was trying to take pics.. just like mom and dad already! I found out that the reason for me always feeling movement so low is because he/she is currently sitting in breach position and kicking me in the bladder with his/her feet. CRAZY! We weren't able to get the 3D pics that we wanted due to some confusion at the front desk so black and whites it is... much to our dismay we really wanted those 3D pics they are soo amazing!
Finally after about 30 minutes K was brought in and we got to look at our bean together. We watched him/her pump the air with tiny fists, we counted the fingers and watched him/her swallow. That was amazing... to see your child swallowing, an every day activity as you sit and watch through a screen was unforgettable, we even saw the lips moving around as it swallowed. Of course me being the emotional person that I am right now I got some tears in my eyes but it was nice to see 2 arms 2 legs, a brain and all the other stuff a baby should have. I still cannot believe that I have that inside me right now. Even though I am reminded almost every minute that it is there! haha!
So after leaving that ultrasound place it was off to the vet for W our dog who has a severe ear infection and 180 bucks later and 3 prescriptions we were out of there and I could finally go home and get ready for the concert. What an awesome show, the night started with Emerson Drive (who are from the town that we live in and nominated for a Grammy for their song Moments!!!!) then it was Teri Clarke who was fantastic and finally Big & Rich!!!!! Before they came out Cowboy Troy did a couple of his songs which were sooo different and we loved them!!! All three bands put on an amazing show Big & Rich were of course way out there in their fur coats and crazy hats and Rich had his whole guitar lined in sparkly diamond type jewels! To top off the night right before they were done Big & Rich brought Emerson Drive back onto the stage for a couple more songs and to congratulate them on their Grammy nomination with a shot and a toast. It was truly a honor to be a part of that and amazing of them to do it for Emerson Drive in their home town! I have to say other than my Canucks Jersey this was the best Christmas Present ever!!!!
So below I have some pics of the ultrasound. We only got three as the babe was moving around a little bit! And he/she is sitting breach with his/her face to my back but still soooo amazing to see!!!!

The bean checking us out!

Little bum and legs curled under
Still just chillin!!! I can't believe that is our baby!!!! I love him/her already!

First Belly Pic

2008-01-10T15:53:00.000-07:00

Ok so some of my friends have been asking me to post a pic of my belly... which isn't too big yet but slowly getting there and hopefully in a couple more weeks I will truly pop! Here is a pic taken today at 18 weeks and 3 days!!! Everything is still going well, K can't feel the kicks yet but he has been trying. More to come after Tuesday and my ultrasound!

More Heartbeats!!!!

2008-01-07T15:54:00.000-07:00

Went and saw my Dr today... she is in a brand new office and still getting organised so it took a little longer there than normal... no biggie for me it meant I didn't have to be at my desk! When I finally got in and sat down for our chat beforehand she made me feel much more at ease with what happens in the labour and delivery room. As some of you know my mom had very hard births with both Landon and I and that lead to a C-section with Dallas and we weren't even large babies! I explained this to her and the whole forceps thing and she informed me that she does not use forceps anymore, that she would use vacuum suction IF it looked like it would help. And that if it didn't look like it would help she would send me right into C-section!!! Yipeee! Not that I want a c-section but it is good to know that my Dr isn't going to sit there and keep me in distress and stress me out. I had a good friend just give birth with my dr and she said that the dr was a calming presence in the delivery room and really helped her to stay focused which was nice to hear!
So the dr's appt went very well, I asked her about my headaches which haven't really seemed to go away and about sleeping both of which she said that there is not much I can do about but I thought I would let her know anyways. Then came my favourite part.... hearting the bean galloping away. It took her a second to find it as he/she kept moving but when she finally did we almost blew the speakers on the Doppler!! It was crazy loud and the look on my Dr's face was priceless. She told me we were at 158 bmp and that it was pretty loud! haha! SOOO nice to hear though especially since I haven't heard it since we left for Mexico!
The baby has been more active in this last week as well, I have gone from flutterings to little bumps to full on punches in my pelvic area. Thanks bean!! I guess he/she doesn't like it when I sit down or try to sleep. He/she still has not risen above my belly button but the Dr did tell me that all seems to be growing well and the 4 pounds that I have gained since the start of this are good!
Well report done!!! I have my ultrasound on the 15th so we will post pics then, we are getting the 3D ones so I am super excited about that! So unless I have other news before the 15th... I will write and post pics then!

Trying to Catch up

2008-01-02T09:56:00.001-07:00

Alright so it has been quite a while since I have posted anything... and yes I feel a little guilty but the holidays were busy and spending time with my family (even though I was all over the place mood wise, I blame hormones) was more important that sitting down and blogging.
Well I guess I could start with the arrival of my parents... I was sooo excited to finally tell them the news, I was bursting but our dog W had to run away and so I sat inside our house with my winter jacket on to cover the bean waiting for K to come back. Once K was back in the house I starting calling my parents grama and grampa until they got it. Mom and Dad were so excited!!!!! They of course asked how far along I was and when I said 16 weeks they were shocked, my little bro D just sat in the corner giggling cause he knew all along. We told him in Tofino of course, and we let my parents know that I was 5 weeks preggers surfing and playing in the ocean in Tofino. Of course once that was out my mom decided that the next day we would do some maternity shopping and got some super cute clothes. I felt pretty lucky.
So all the family in my small house was really a lot of fun, they brought Bill with them (he lives with my parents) and Bill is an AMAZING cook. I didn't have to cook the whole time they were here it was the best Christmas present yet! My middle bro L and his wife L came up on Christmas day for a night and it was nice to have everyone together for Christmas as we didn't last year.
After Christmas came of course New Years and our neighbors had an 80's party... it was a blast although come midnight toasting with Pelligrino just wasn't the same. I did the makeup for the girls which was the highlight of the night for me and we had tons of fun! Our dog W left us a little new years gift as well... turns out K had taken him to work and given him some dog bones which made him sick and have the runs all over his kennel. Yup our whole house smelled like poop when we got home. YUCK!
Oh my cousin R got married on new years eve too which is pretty cool my parents were there and said it was beautiful which was to be expected!
So in baby news I am now 17 weeks and 2 days!!! How exciting is that. I can really feel movement whenever I sit still and as I am typing this I am getting booted left right and centre! I have my next dr's appt on Monday so I look forward to hearing the heart beat again and my next ultrasound is on the 15th so more pics of the bean to come! We are getting the 3D one as well so I am super excited!!!!
Well it is back to work... yuck I just don't feel like it today and back to getting up early, even worse since I am NOT sleeping at all at night. I just can't get comfortable. Ahh well I guess it is preparing me for the all nighters to come!

A Kick.... I think...

2007-12-20T13:24:00.000-07:00

Well we are back from Playa Del Carmen Mexico, it was so much fun and the weather was perfect. We got rained on the very last day but that was our shopping day anyways so we were happy to not miss a good beach day! The hotel was a 5+ star resort all inclusive and amazing except of course for the doubles beds pushed together to make one big bed and the fact that they were hard as a rock. Although it was great training ground for me to start sleeping on my side. The flight down was pretty smooth but the flight home is another story and I don't think I will be flying again any time soon! We were lucky to get out of Chicago airport after our layover before they cancelled all of the flights.
Anyways so we are home and I am happy to be home even if that means taking K to the hospital due to dehydration from the runs... yup poor guy... he went to the Dr and they sent him right to the hospital as his heart was racing and his temp was pretty high. He finally seems to be doing better today as he went to work for a half day and now is at home resting.
So in the madness that is this week (my family is coming in two days!!!) we are struggling to get the house ready as if will be packed full this season and we just bought our dog a "special" collar, yea 265 bucks later!!! But it has 7 settings and will be good for training purposes. My mom has been great at de-stressing me little does she know that part of my feeling overwhelmed is because I finally get to tell her on Saturday that I am pregnant. I have wanted to spill for so long but have been scared to just b/c of our m/c, we have finally opened up to some people out here but I am super excited to tell my parents and then to phone A my best friend and spill the news to her. So going back to the madness of the week, in all the stress of getting ready for Christmas and stuff I was sitting quietly at my desk on Tuesday and felt a very distinct poke in my abdomen, right where the baby seems to be sitting as that is where we found the heart beat and the u/s was taken. CRAZY! I couldn't believe it! I have felt some flutterings and stuff but this was a very distinct poke and very different from the flutterings... and no I did not have gas at the time! haha! So that has totally made my week... that and getting to tell the family of course! Well enough for now back to pretending to work and waiting for today to end so vacation starts again!

HEARTBEAT!!!

2007-12-03T14:35:00.001-07:00

Had my appointment with the doctor today... and yup we still have a heartbeat! What a cool thing to hear! She said it was 158 bpm which is really good and healthy!!! I asked why so high during my ultrasound but she said that the heart beats faster during early pregnancy! I am sooo excited I can't stop using these!!!!!!!!!! haha! Anyways when I got to the appointment she started by checking my blood pressure which is all good and then she said she would try to find the heartbeat. I swear my heart skipped a beat, she put that gross jelly on and turned on the Doppler and low and behold she barely put it to my skin and there was the sound of tiny little horses. It was so loud and strong and made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I looked over at K and he got this funny little grin on his face. Yup that's his kid!!! haha! To know that this pregnancy is going sooo well is just a true gift from God.
When I reminded her about the trip to Mexico she got a little hesitant, I told her that I have not had any spotting and I am feeling a lot better too. No headaches today yet!!! She wasn't as worried about that as the food and the drink. I told her that I would drink only bottled water with the odd Orange Juice thrown in of course (we are staying at a five star all inclusive) and that I don't plan on eating anywhere but the restaurants in the hotel. She just said to be careful... but when I told her that there are going to be three pregnant women down there in all different stages and that we would all watch out for each other she seemed to relax a little!
So as we stand there are 4 more sleeps till we leave for Edmonton and 5 more sleeps till we take off to Mexico!!!!! Man I am getting excited just in case nobody noticed!

Headaches and other fun stuff.

2007-11-30T10:18:00.000-07:00

The bane of my adolescent existence has come back, when I was young and first started getting my cycle I would get terrible cramps that hurt so bad I would throw up and horrible migraines that also made me throw up from the pain. Well we seem to be back to square one, although without the puking part, I have had a headache on and off now for about 3 weeks. And yes I know that it is due to increased blood flow and all that stuff but come on 3 weeks!!!!!!
Plus I have gone from sleeping through the night to having to get up at about 4:30 every morning to take the worlds largest pee. Then I wake up our dog who then thinks it is time to go outside and do his business and eat his breakfast and the cats who start whining for their food. Am I whining to much already? I know poor poor me ah well in 8 more sleeps I will be on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen soaking up the sun and swimming in a pool with a bottle of water constantly at my side! haha!
Alright so in other news last night was the first night in about 3 weeks that I actually finished my dinner without gagging! Yup! Figured it out... no MEAT! I gag when I eat steak, chicken, fish anything so the pharmacist told me to try eggs. I think I can handle eggs just so that I get some protein in me. K made me a great dinner the other night with little potatoes, green beans and yummy steak. The green beans and potatoes were amazing... got to the steak and could barely eat a bite, the gag reflex was so terrible. So last night I went for a small grocery shopping trip before dinner and picked up Alfredo sauce and Fettuccine noodles... yup finished the whole bowl soooo good! I put some salmon on K's so he had meat but I just couldn't do it with mine.
Well here's hoping I can eat while in Mexico, I am really looking forward to some good food!!! I will be 14 weeks by then though so it "should" be ok!
So I am getting pretty excited about telling my parents too... I can't wait to see the looks on their faces when they find out how far along I already am! AND that they can tell whoever they want without me getting angry! Man December is going to be an awesome month!!!!

See ya later first Trimester!!!!!

2007-11-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

Ok so I know that this is how I seem to start every post but YIPEEEEEE! 12 weeks today! How exciting is that! The little bean is growing and I have my next appt on the 3rd of December so hopefully we can hear the heartbeat by then. I can't wait. I just keep thinking... I saw the heartbeat so I know that all is well with the little guy!
This week is going to be a little bit hard for me as technically tomorrow was the day I lost the first bean so I am going to keep busy and not dwell on it.
12 more sleeps and I am on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen! Man I am stoked! K and I have been looking forward to this since January when we heard about it. Our friends M and D are getting hitched down there so there will be tons of people there. I am not looking forward to the flight though, I have to go the pharmacy and see what I can take that is safe for me to calm me down for the flight!
Hmm what else do I have to report? I am still getting night sickness and bloating it is gross but I am hoping it subsides in the next week so I am good for Mexico, I guess we will see! I also just finished writing our Christmas Update for this year, it is how I am going to announce that we are pregnant! I cannot wait to get that off my chest! I will have to mail them pretty close to Christmas though because I don't want people phoning my parents and letting them know before we can!
Well that seems to be it for now. Not very exciting... hopefully next Monday I will have more exciting news for everyone! If I don't update before then!

Week 11

2007-11-19T13:45:00.000-07:00

Ok so first off... yipeeeeeeee another week has passed!!! That part always excites me at least there is one good thing about Mondays!! On another note I am feeling extremely tired and frustrated, or maybe stressed is a better word. So I am tired because I don't seem to be sleeping through the night due to some super strange dreams they are more positive now at least no more shootings going on, they are just strange and sometimes awkward. Ahh well I can handle that.
This week and next week mark the time when I lost our first baby Alarly (yes we named her it made it easier for me). I believe that something happened around week 10 or 11 and then I miscarried at 12 weeks 1 day. Just when you think you are in the clear. So I am in somewhat of a panic mode that it is going to happen again and that I will never get to have this baby. Or that I will never be able to experience a full birth and what being a mom is like. Alright I am an over analyzer but still these are the thoughts going through my brain. The what ifs of this week.
The other thing that is starting to bother me is that we have friends who are due the same time as us... my SIL M is due on the 6th I believe and our friends M and P are due on the 5th. Now this is not against them at all I am soooo excited for both couples that it makes me giddy! To think cousins the same age!!! That is what I always wanted and never had! But because they have no reason to worry and no family to wait until Christmas to tell they are starting to phone us as they turn 12 weeks. I want soooo badly to tell more people and to jump on the roof and shout it for everyone to hear, I want to be happier and proud and looking ahead and planning more. But K wants to keep this on the down low too, I get it and I get why. It is just hard, whenever I talk to my mom on the phone I want to tell her and have her be excited with me and to ask her a million questions and plan for a visit and all that stuff. I also want to tell my best friend, it feels so strange to keep this from people. I don't want to hurt them by not telling but I know if I tell my mom she will not be able to keep her mouth shut unless my dad duct tapes it up! Sorry mom when you read this.. we are too much alike so I know what you will do! I am super excited for this vacation to Mexico not just because we are getting out of town but because we can tell people when we are there... I can shout it from the rooftops.... I can talk about it all I want! Plus my friend M will be there and will be about 5 months preggers when I see her! Then after Mexico it is one week till I can tell my parents... I swear they aren't even going to walk in the door and I am going to shout.... I AM 16 WEEKS PREGGERSSSSS!!! Just like that. really loud and I won't care who is listening. Then I can post it on my facebook and tell the office (my boss knows) and tell every stranger I see. I swear going grocery shopping and making small talk with the lady at the till is sometimes the highlight of my day.... yup I am here cause I am preggers and I was totally craving.... (insert yummy or gross food here).
Ahhhhhh that feels better I have vented. Life can now continue!

Double Digits!

2007-11-13T14:45:00.000-07:00

Yipeee so I am pretty excited! Double digits... yesterday marked my 10 week. I am making it 3 more weeks to go and I am 13 weeks and almost in Mexico sitting on the beach drinking a bottle of water. It just feels like some of my symptoms are going away (which I heard starts to happen around 10 weeks) and I want them to stay... I might have gas, feel like crap every night and have sore boobs but I took comfort in them! Ah well I saw a heart beat so the little one is in there and growing and developing!
In other news I went to the massage therapist today... I am officially hooked. She got all the "spots" that needed getting and will do more of an assessment next time I go in and see her which is next week! It was amazing, she would find a spot and then explain to me what it was affecting, the worst seemed to be my head and that is where I was getting my teeth clenching and migraines from!
So not much to report this time, had a migraine all weekend long and pretty much went to bed early every single night. Much to K's dismay I was a little boring this weekend. Although we had our amazing neighbors over for crepes on Saturday and that was pretty exciting. They brought their little puppy M over and W our 1 year old puppy and him are new BFF's! They are adorable together! We still have some crepes left over and whipped cream in the fridge but it was sooo good! It reminded me of home and my dad. He used to invite over a couple of families from our church on Sunday and we would all troop in and he would have 3 or 4 pans going at once making these crepes. If it was St. Paddy's day they were green, or pink on Valentines or blue just for fun! It really made me feel home sick.. I just have to think I get to see them at Christmas! Like a month and a bit away! Then I finally get to tell them that I am pregnant.... man are they going to be excited especially when they find out that I am out of the danger zone and into my second trimester by the time they come up!

The Dr. is in

2007-11-07T10:51:00.000-07:00

Went to the Dr. today, kind of an uneventful visit although I am getting a referral for massages. Thank goodness sometimes at night I would just like to remove my spine and put it back in when I wake up. Can't wait... Tuesday 1:45 relief of the back! ahhhhhh!
Didn't hear the heartbeat today although being only 9 weeks 2 days I really didn't expect to hopefully by next visit which is December 3rd! Right before Mexico! I told her about Mexico and the Dr. was a little hesitant on that one. Although I will be 13 weeks by the time we fly out she said if there is any bleeding that I shouldn't go so .... I WILL NOT BLEED! As the trip is already paid for and I have been looking forward to it forever! Plus I finally get to tell people that I am preggers while on that trip, I am finding it very hard to keep my mouth shut.
So not very exciting today but the Dr. trip was good, 178 bpm is normal high but still classified as normal and she said that everything else looked good which was encouraging. We have another U/S on Jan 15th and my blob will look more like a baby by then... we will have to come up with a new name for him/her!

Almost let it slip....

2007-11-06T10:42:00.000-07:00

So my parents finally got back from Nashville this weekend.... I hadn't talked to my mom in over a week, which is not like us at all. It was strange knowing that I had a heartbeat and everything going on inside me and not being able to tell her. At one point in our conversation I was saying if we moved back to BC that we would need a bigger house due to a baby and the dog and 2 cats, to which she replied "was that a slip". I cooley responded with a no not a slip just hoping that we can get pregnant again soon, and knowing this would need to make room for a little one in a new house! Jeesh good save T, I want to tell her more than anything but no offense mom when you actually read this... you have a big mouth and will want to tell everyone the fantastic news. Hence we are telling only a couple of people for now.
For my wonderful friends that have shared in the news so far thank you for being an amazing ear, I am starting to actually get happy about being preggers and feeling a little more confident about the outcome of it. Tomorrow is my Dr's appointment so I guess we will figure out how everything is going then I am super excited!
In regards to how I am feeling health wise.... I feel like crap. I am still feeling super ill at nights and like I can't eat but I know I have to. I have that I am going to puke feeling for most of the evening and sadly the only thing that seems to sit well in my stomach right now is chocolate. So I don't feel fat enough already my body is craving things that just add to the waist line... stupid leftover Halloween candy. On the nicer side of things... it seems for now that my zit face is clearing up and leaving tiny little battle scars all over my chin. Ahh well that is what foundation is for! The gas seems to have left for now as well... although the boob pain... still here, and my cat J loves to walk and sleep on my chest which doesn't make for a nice wake up call during the night.
Alrighty then... enough ramblings for now.... I will fill in more tomorrow after the Dr's Appointment.

We have a Heartbeat!!!

2007-11-03T13:45:00.000-06:00

YIPEEE so today went well. I am sooo excited and can't wait for K to get home to share in the excitement. The only thing that sucks is that mom doesn't know yet and I can't just pick up the phone and talk to her about it.

Sooo we got to the appt and they took me in, I had to pee so bad when he started pressing on my bladder I thought I was going to pee on the bed! But he spent a bit looking around and I asked him if all was well b/c I was of course freaking out! He told me we had a heartbeat and that my uterus is tilted. Still not sure what that means but he just said it made it harder to get a clear pic. So we have named him blob for now, as that is all that he showed up to be, but that is MY blob and he has a heartbeat... I am so excited that I can't really contain myself right now.

Now the heartbeat was 178 bpm which I hope is normal but I guess we will see. It seems a little high for me. I have a Dr's appt on Wednesday so I guess we will see after that! For now I am so thankful for answered prayers and for my little blob. I am hoping that the nightmares go away for now and I can have some more sweet dreams!!

3 More Sleeps...

2007-10-31T14:53:00.000-06:00

Ok so this ultrasound is all that is occupying my mind. I have been SUPER moody at work to the point where my boss has decided that staying away from the office would be his best defense. I have driven my boss away... I mean come on who does that. But in all honesty his little noises are driving me nuts... he smacks his gum with his mouth open, (he is doing it right now and I just want to smack him), he bites his nails, he clears his throat and makes gross noises doing it, he quietly burps every once in a while and excuses himself in shock, he picks his ears with his letter opener which I will NEVER touch. Now the biting nails I am allowed to yell at him for, but everything else I have to keep my mouth shut. But to cap it all off... my boss is 76 years old. Now I know I say this and you picture this gross guy but he is quite nice and decent... he smells nice (not like old man) and he is a hard worker. He is semi-retired and about to head down south for a couple of weeks and man am I glad to have him gone for a bit.
Now because of all of that I am totally unmotivated to work and just want to throttle my boss, the thing is ... when I wasn't preggers none of this stuff bothered me. Just the nail chewing b/c I can hear him bite his nails off... Ok enough of that I am sure that all of the rest of you are currently gagging as you read this and will never return to my blog but the gum chewing is the worst... I can't even go into more details I am at wits end. Mind you we share a medium sized office so when he is in we are in the same room and I can't really excuse myself.
Onto different things... Halloween... yipeee... midweek and only 3 more sleeps till we go to the ultrasound. I am yurning for the heartbeat.... It seems to consume my thoughts... I guess because it is finally getting close, kinda like D day haha. It is where we learn the fate of me and where we see how my little bean is doing.
I dropped K off at the airport this morning.. sniff.. sniff... I hate it when he is gone although out lab W is a pretty good spooner so I can at least stay warm in bed! lol! And the cats J and T usually sleep on my feet so it should be ok. Plus my amazing neighbor has said that if I am lonely I can visit them... I love that. (yes she reads this and yes I am sucking up to her so she doesn't get sick of me).
So anyways no other real news to report although ... this just in.... I am currently growing a volcano on my forehead. luckily I have long sweeping bangs that are covering it. Oh and I cried during a CIBC commercial the other day. Man I love hormones.

Sleep... where have you gone???

2007-10-30T10:03:00.000-06:00

As you have probably now guessed from my title line.. I am not getting ANY sleep. I am up usually only once to pee.. and once because of a nightmare of sorts. I have been having terrible dreams, last night there was something about riding a horse out into this field and there was a kid on the saddle with me, I crossed this small barrier into the field and knew I shouldn't but did it anyways of course. All of the sudden I was terrified, didn't know what to do or how to protect this child (which wasn't mine but a friends). The other night I had a dream where K was having an affair on me with his secretary. I woke up so angry... and yet I knew it was a dream and that he would never to anything like that, it is just my stupid dreams!
After these horrible dreams in which I seem terrified no for reason I usually sit in bed wide awake for quite a while.... K usually senses that I am awake and will hold me until I fall asleep again. I couldn't ask for a better husband.
The painful gas seems to have subsided for a bit at least, here's hoping it stays away for a little while at least. Still can't eat chicken although we are going to try again tonight and see what happens... who knows maybe this time it will be OK. Along with the painful gas subsiding the nausea seems to been letting go a bit which is nice. Still lingering and making me feel pregnant are the sore boobs and zits... man I really hate the zits!
This Saturday.. I think that is all that I can think of right now. I can't wait to see that heartbeat and see the little bean, although I do feel pretty bad that K will not be there. 4 more sleeps until I meet my bean! YIPPEE! I am looking forward to the Dr saying oh look at that.. implantation looks good... the heart is beating normally and you look all set to go! Man that would be amazing... it is what I pray for every day! That and that God would give my little bean in heaven a kiss for me.

The Gas Factor

2007-10-26T15:26:00.000-06:00

Alright a bad subject I know but it seems to be what is occupying my life recently. In the past few days in the afternoon my appetite leaves me... gone can't picture myself eating a thing. Therefore I make sure that I have fairly decent lunches, then come dinner time if all I want is chocolate ice-cream or an orange with some grapes it is fine. I don't feel too badly about what I am eating. Ok so back to this while gas thing, after dinner I usually sit around with K and we chat and watch TV you know typical quality time! Well lately it feels like my stomach is blowing up and it gets super hard to touch. And man do I pay for it later on in the night. Two nights ago I woke up and thought I was going to throw up everywhere, it was awful. Now I didn't end up chuffing my cookies but it took a while to get over that feeling.
Well last night was pretty bad too... my neighbor brought over Blizzards... which I love all the time any time... and I ate about 3/4 of it through the evening. BIG mistake my stomach was popping and gurgling all night long, no real nauseous feelings just gassy feelings. But like I have said in other posts, I will take it if it means a healthy and happy baby! I honestly don't think I could handle another miscarriage so this one is going to stick!!! Right God??? Please!!!???
Other than the gas I am feeling ok. My clothes are fitting a little tighter and I am feeling like a big fat blog, need to find some clothes that I can wear to work as my pickins are getting slim. I still can't seem to eat a chicken breast but if it is cut up I seem to be ok. No puking yet either but I get that feeling on a regular basis... although I take comfort in it.
8 more sleeps until my ultrasound!!! YIPEEEE I am making it slowly but surely I just want this weekend to fly by and the week to fly by afterwards and then me and my neighbor can be off to see my bean!

Booked and Ready...

2007-10-23T15:29:00.000-06:00

Ok so we have already decided that I am not one for patience.... and now I have to wait a whole 11 more sleeps until I get my ultrasound. Alright so it isn't like the first time when they wanted to wait until 19 weeks or whatever but it still seems soooo far away! Oh and K won't be in town that weekend either so I am going either by myself or with my amazing neighbor... you know who you are!
The appointment itself went fairly well, K was there which was nice... although at first my Dr. didn't want to do the prenatal sheet once I told her my symptoms and she felt my belly she decided to try for a heartbeat... no go there yet... and she started filling out the sheet! So I guess I sold her on the idea that I have the start of a healthy pregnancy going on inside me.
Of course she sent me for bloodwork where they totally drained me and I felt like a raisin and had to pee in a cup... you know I hate peeing in cups! Why can't they make it a funnel instead for us women it would be sooo much easier!
Other than that my day has been uneventful, actually work was and is quite boring and I am counting down the minutes till I can go home and see K. Which will only be for a few minutes then I am off to a Candle party, where I have been banned from buying any candles due to the closetful we already have oops! lol!
I think thats is for now... although more to come of course! Man 11 sleeps.... how will I survive! At least my dr's appt to find out my results is only 4 sleeps after that.

One More Day!!!

2007-10-22T10:47:00.000-06:00

Ok so I know I am super excited to see my Dr. I WANT THAT ULTRASOUND!!!!! Does that sound desperate enough? I hope that once I get the sheet that says I am allowed one that I can get in right away. I am excited to see my little guys heartbeat or to hear it one of the two! I didn't get that at all the first time around, I think that once I hear or see that little heart beating that I will feel much better about this whole pregnancy.. it will stop feeling like a hoax.. and start feeling real!
I have been feeling slightly ill all weekend, no vomiting but the constant feeling that I am going to along with a tummy that seems to be filling with gas on a regular basis. TMI I know but I have always been about giving out too much information. My neighbor asked me if I was swallowing air... and then proceeded to demonstrate yesterday over dinner. Quite amusing and even more so when he lifted his leg to toot before we left.... hmmm you know you are comfortable with your friends when!! But I needed a laugh and they are always good for that!
Alrighty ... so at almost 8 weeks my pants don't really fit me... this is a problem. I refuse to go shopping until I know that everything is ok, so for now the bella band is saving my butt. All of my pants are worn button open and fly part way down, and even though I am a size 10 to start with there is a slight roundness right under my "always there belly". I never had that last time.. am I excited about it... heck ya! It means my little bean is growing and that is good! The growing pains from last week are pretty much gone as is that lovely light brown discharge.
So other than my now usual rantings there is not much to report. I just want today to fly by and for it to be Tuesday at 1030 already. I am sure I will have more to say tomorrow.

The Waiting Game

2007-10-20T11:22:00.000-06:00

So now that I am pregnant I play the waiting game.... waiting for the first appointment, waiting for the bloodwork, waiting for my ultrasound (hopefully I get an early one due to my m/c last time) waiting waiting waiting.... Yes I am hormonal.... but I just want to get the ball rolling and to know that everything is ok.
Speaking of hormones, my face is one big ZIT! It is gross, I swear all the coverup in the world cannot make it go away. And of course they aren't the usual zits... they are the deap rooted hurting kind! yuck I know! So I am emotional, I have a zit face and my boobs hurt. Yipeeee. Although at this point yes I might be whining about it but I will take any side effect that is thrown my way. Anything that says that YES I am pregnant and YES these are the signs and how you know on a daily basis. I am 7 weeks and 2 days right now and all I can think about is that 13 week mark. If I can just make it there everything will be ok.
Ahhh yes the much talked about end of the first trimester, the date that every pregnant woman looks forward to. Once we reach that mark we get to relax maybe just a little... it is like having you eye on the prize one trimester at a time. Ok so that sounded dorky I know but how else can you look at it. That is just the truth, with the ultimate prize being your baby at the end of almost 40 weeks. Well I got just over 32 weeks to go. And I pray that everything goes smoothly this time and I am soooo counting down the days to when we can tell our friends and family!

It was Positive.

2007-10-19T11:14:00.000-06:00

Well after a horrible summer that ended in a miscarriage at 12 weeks my husband and I have just found out we are pregnant again! About 3 weeks ago I was feeling a little strange and decided to take a test... well low and behold that digital test said PREGNANT!! Ok so maybe without the exclamation marks but I was pretty excited, and yet at the same time incredibly unsure. My husbands first words were not that he was excited or congrats to us.. it was "well that explains your mood swings". Ahhh always the supportive one.
Stuff that has been going on in the last 3 weeks since we found out. Hmm we decided not to tell anyone until we go away on vacation for a wedding in December with our friends. They will be sworn to secrecy as we are not telling family until Christmas time when they come to Alberta to visit. Christmas just seems like a long time to wait, but after the miscarriage in the summer we want to keep this to ourselves until we are past the safety zone.
I have been a little concerned this week as I had some cramping and brown discharge, gross I know. I found that the cramping was worse if I walked the dog in the morning so for now those have stopped he will have to deal with chasing a ball in the park before I go to work. It hasn't been that much discharge and the cramps I can deal with I was told that they could be growing pains.. when your uterus grows which would be about right for timing. I talked to a friend who is due in December and she informed me that this happened to her in the same spot and for a couple weeks, I can deal with that.
I am really looking forward to my first Dr's appt next week, my Dr is amazing and when I went to see her after my m/c she informed me that next time around we would got for an early ultrasound so I am really going to push for that one. Although she did say to wait until I had at least one cycle before I was to try to get pregnant again... oops that one didn't happen.
I figured my body would get pregnant again when it was healed, being a person of Faith I have prayed everyday for a healed and healthy body. For God to comfort my little baby in heaven and to lay a hand on my belly and keep safe my little bean as he grows. I know that this time I will approach my pregnancy different and give it to God and ask for his help on a daily basis. Now all I have to do is pray... follow the dr's orders and wait until June!