A Kick.... I think...

Well we are back from Playa Del Carmen Mexico, it was so much fun and the weather was perfect. We got rained on the very last day but that was our shopping day anyways so we were happy to not miss a good beach day! The hotel was a 5+ star resort all inclusive and amazing except of course for the doubles beds pushed together to make one big bed and the fact that they were hard as a rock. Although it was great training ground for me to start sleeping on my side. The flight down was pretty smooth but the flight home is another story and I don't think I will be flying again any time soon! We were lucky to get out of Chicago airport after our layover before they cancelled all of the flights.
Anyways so we are home and I am happy to be home even if that means taking K to the hospital due to dehydration from the runs... yup poor guy... he went to the Dr and they sent him right to the hospital as his heart was racing and his temp was pretty high. He finally seems to be doing better today as he went to work for a half day and now is at home resting.
So in the madness that is this week (my family is coming in two days!!!) we are struggling to get the house ready as if will be packed full this season and we just bought our dog a "special" collar, yea 265 bucks later!!! But it has 7 settings and will be good for training purposes. My mom has been great at de-stressing me little does she know that part of my feeling overwhelmed is because I finally get to tell her on Saturday that I am pregnant. I have wanted to spill for so long but have been scared to just b/c of our m/c, we have finally opened up to some people out here but I am super excited to tell my parents and then to phone A my best friend and spill the news to her. So going back to the madness of the week, in all the stress of getting ready for Christmas and stuff I was sitting quietly at my desk on Tuesday and felt a very distinct poke in my abdomen, right where the baby seems to be sitting as that is where we found the heart beat and the u/s was taken. CRAZY! I couldn't believe it! I have felt some flutterings and stuff but this was a very distinct poke and very different from the flutterings... and no I did not have gas at the time! haha! So that has totally made my week... that and getting to tell the family of course! Well enough for now back to pretending to work and waiting for today to end so vacation starts again!

HEARTBEAT!!!

Had my appointment with the doctor today... and yup we still have a heartbeat! What a cool thing to hear! She said it was 158 bpm which is really good and healthy!!! I asked why so high during my ultrasound but she said that the heart beats faster during early pregnancy! I am sooo excited I can't stop using these!!!!!!!!!! haha! Anyways when I got to the appointment she started by checking my blood pressure which is all good and then she said she would try to find the heartbeat. I swear my heart skipped a beat, she put that gross jelly on and turned on the Doppler and low and behold she barely put it to my skin and there was the sound of tiny little horses. It was so loud and strong and made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I looked over at K and he got this funny little grin on his face. Yup that's his kid!!! haha! To know that this pregnancy is going sooo well is just a true gift from God.
When I reminded her about the trip to Mexico she got a little hesitant, I told her that I have not had any spotting and I am feeling a lot better too. No headaches today yet!!! She wasn't as worried about that as the food and the drink. I told her that I would drink only bottled water with the odd Orange Juice thrown in of course (we are staying at a five star all inclusive) and that I don't plan on eating anywhere but the restaurants in the hotel. She just said to be careful... but when I told her that there are going to be three pregnant women down there in all different stages and that we would all watch out for each other she seemed to relax a little!
So as we stand there are 4 more sleeps till we leave for Edmonton and 5 more sleeps till we take off to Mexico!!!!! Man I am getting excited just in case nobody noticed!

Headaches and other fun stuff.

The bane of my adolescent existence has come back, when I was young and first started getting my cycle I would get terrible cramps that hurt so bad I would throw up and horrible migraines that also made me throw up from the pain. Well we seem to be back to square one, although without the puking part, I have had a headache on and off now for about 3 weeks. And yes I know that it is due to increased blood flow and all that stuff but come on 3 weeks!!!!!!
Plus I have gone from sleeping through the night to having to get up at about 4:30 every morning to take the worlds largest pee. Then I wake up our dog who then thinks it is time to go outside and do his business and eat his breakfast and the cats who start whining for their food. Am I whining to much already? I know poor poor me ah well in 8 more sleeps I will be on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen soaking up the sun and swimming in a pool with a bottle of water constantly at my side! haha!
Alright so in other news last night was the first night in about 3 weeks that I actually finished my dinner without gagging! Yup! Figured it out... no MEAT! I gag when I eat steak, chicken, fish anything so the pharmacist told me to try eggs. I think I can handle eggs just so that I get some protein in me. K made me a great dinner the other night with little potatoes, green beans and yummy steak. The green beans and potatoes were amazing... got to the steak and could barely eat a bite, the gag reflex was so terrible. So last night I went for a small grocery shopping trip before dinner and picked up Alfredo sauce and Fettuccine noodles... yup finished the whole bowl soooo good! I put some salmon on K's so he had meat but I just couldn't do it with mine.
Well here's hoping I can eat while in Mexico, I am really looking forward to some good food!!! I will be 14 weeks by then though so it "should" be ok!
So I am getting pretty excited about telling my parents too... I can't wait to see the looks on their faces when they find out how far along I already am! AND that they can tell whoever they want without me getting angry! Man December is going to be an awesome month!!!!

See ya later first Trimester!!!!!

Ok so I know that this is how I seem to start every post but YIPEEEEEE! 12 weeks today! How exciting is that! The little bean is growing and I have my next appt on the 3rd of December so hopefully we can hear the heartbeat by then. I can't wait. I just keep thinking... I saw the heartbeat so I know that all is well with the little guy!
This week is going to be a little bit hard for me as technically tomorrow was the day I lost the first bean so I am going to keep busy and not dwell on it.
12 more sleeps and I am on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen! Man I am stoked! K and I have been looking forward to this since January when we heard about it. Our friends M and D are getting hitched down there so there will be tons of people there. I am not looking forward to the flight though, I have to go the pharmacy and see what I can take that is safe for me to calm me down for the flight!
Hmm what else do I have to report? I am still getting night sickness and bloating it is gross but I am hoping it subsides in the next week so I am good for Mexico, I guess we will see! I also just finished writing our Christmas Update for this year, it is how I am going to announce that we are pregnant! I cannot wait to get that off my chest! I will have to mail them pretty close to Christmas though because I don't want people phoning my parents and letting them know before we can!
Well that seems to be it for now. Not very exciting... hopefully next Monday I will have more exciting news for everyone! If I don't update before then!

Week 11

Ok so first off... yipeeeeeeee another week has passed!!! That part always excites me at least there is one good thing about Mondays!! On another note I am feeling extremely tired and frustrated, or maybe stressed is a better word. So I am tired because I don't seem to be sleeping through the night due to some super strange dreams they are more positive now at least no more shootings going on, they are just strange and sometimes awkward. Ahh well I can handle that.
This week and next week mark the time when I lost our first baby Alarly (yes we named her it made it easier for me). I believe that something happened around week 10 or 11 and then I miscarried at 12 weeks 1 day. Just when you think you are in the clear. So I am in somewhat of a panic mode that it is going to happen again and that I will never get to have this baby. Or that I will never be able to experience a full birth and what being a mom is like. Alright I am an over analyzer but still these are the thoughts going through my brain. The what ifs of this week.
The other thing that is starting to bother me is that we have friends who are due the same time as us... my SIL M is due on the 6th I believe and our friends M and P are due on the 5th. Now this is not against them at all I am soooo excited for both couples that it makes me giddy! To think cousins the same age!!! That is what I always wanted and never had! But because they have no reason to worry and no family to wait until Christmas to tell they are starting to phone us as they turn 12 weeks. I want soooo badly to tell more people and to jump on the roof and shout it for everyone to hear, I want to be happier and proud and looking ahead and planning more. But K wants to keep this on the down low too, I get it and I get why. It is just hard, whenever I talk to my mom on the phone I want to tell her and have her be excited with me and to ask her a million questions and plan for a visit and all that stuff. I also want to tell my best friend, it feels so strange to keep this from people. I don't want to hurt them by not telling but I know if I tell my mom she will not be able to keep her mouth shut unless my dad duct tapes it up! Sorry mom when you read this.. we are too much alike so I know what you will do! I am super excited for this vacation to Mexico not just because we are getting out of town but because we can tell people when we are there... I can shout it from the rooftops.... I can talk about it all I want! Plus my friend M will be there and will be about 5 months preggers when I see her! Then after Mexico it is one week till I can tell my parents... I swear they aren't even going to walk in the door and I am going to shout.... I AM 16 WEEKS PREGGERSSSSS!!! Just like that. really loud and I won't care who is listening. Then I can post it on my facebook and tell the office (my boss knows) and tell every stranger I see. I swear going grocery shopping and making small talk with the lady at the till is sometimes the highlight of my day.... yup I am here cause I am preggers and I was totally craving.... (insert yummy or gross food here).
Ahhhhhh that feels better I have vented. Life can now continue!

Double Digits!

Yipeee so I am pretty excited! Double digits... yesterday marked my 10 week. I am making it 3 more weeks to go and I am 13 weeks and almost in Mexico sitting on the beach drinking a bottle of water. It just feels like some of my symptoms are going away (which I heard starts to happen around 10 weeks) and I want them to stay... I might have gas, feel like crap every night and have sore boobs but I took comfort in them! Ah well I saw a heart beat so the little one is in there and growing and developing!
In other news I went to the massage therapist today... I am officially hooked. She got all the "spots" that needed getting and will do more of an assessment next time I go in and see her which is next week! It was amazing, she would find a spot and then explain to me what it was affecting, the worst seemed to be my head and that is where I was getting my teeth clenching and migraines from!
So not much to report this time, had a migraine all weekend long and pretty much went to bed early every single night. Much to K's dismay I was a little boring this weekend. Although we had our amazing neighbors over for crepes on Saturday and that was pretty exciting. They brought their little puppy M over and W our 1 year old puppy and him are new BFF's! They are adorable together! We still have some crepes left over and whipped cream in the fridge but it was sooo good! It reminded me of home and my dad. He used to invite over a couple of families from our church on Sunday and we would all troop in and he would have 3 or 4 pans going at once making these crepes. If it was St. Paddy's day they were green, or pink on Valentines or blue just for fun! It really made me feel home sick.. I just have to think I get to see them at Christmas! Like a month and a bit away! Then I finally get to tell them that I am pregnant.... man are they going to be excited especially when they find out that I am out of the danger zone and into my second trimester by the time they come up!

The Dr. is in

Went to the Dr. today, kind of an uneventful visit although I am getting a referral for massages. Thank goodness sometimes at night I would just like to remove my spine and put it back in when I wake up. Can't wait... Tuesday 1:45 relief of the back! ahhhhhh!
Didn't hear the heartbeat today although being only 9 weeks 2 days I really didn't expect to hopefully by next visit which is December 3rd! Right before Mexico! I told her about Mexico and the Dr. was a little hesitant on that one. Although I will be 13 weeks by the time we fly out she said if there is any bleeding that I shouldn't go so .... I WILL NOT BLEED! As the trip is already paid for and I have been looking forward to it forever! Plus I finally get to tell people that I am preggers while on that trip, I am finding it very hard to keep my mouth shut.
So not very exciting today but the Dr. trip was good, 178 bpm is normal high but still classified as normal and she said that everything else looked good which was encouraging. We have another U/S on Jan 15th and my blob will look more like a baby by then... we will have to come up with a new name for him/her!