Friday, November 30, 2007

Headaches and other fun stuff.

The bane of my adolescent existence has come back, when I was young and first started getting my cycle I would get terrible cramps that hurt so bad I would throw up and horrible migraines that also made me throw up from the pain. Well we seem to be back to square one, although without the puking part, I have had a headache on and off now for about 3 weeks. And yes I know that it is due to increased blood flow and all that stuff but come on 3 weeks!!!!!!
Plus I have gone from sleeping through the night to having to get up at about 4:30 every morning to take the worlds largest pee. Then I wake up our dog who then thinks it is time to go outside and do his business and eat his breakfast and the cats who start whining for their food. Am I whining to much already? I know poor poor me ah well in 8 more sleeps I will be on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen soaking up the sun and swimming in a pool with a bottle of water constantly at my side! haha!
Alright so in other news last night was the first night in about 3 weeks that I actually finished my dinner without gagging! Yup! Figured it out... no MEAT! I gag when I eat steak, chicken, fish anything so the pharmacist told me to try eggs. I think I can handle eggs just so that I get some protein in me. K made me a great dinner the other night with little potatoes, green beans and yummy steak. The green beans and potatoes were amazing... got to the steak and could barely eat a bite, the gag reflex was so terrible. So last night I went for a small grocery shopping trip before dinner and picked up Alfredo sauce and Fettuccine noodles... yup finished the whole bowl soooo good! I put some salmon on K's so he had meat but I just couldn't do it with mine.
Well here's hoping I can eat while in Mexico, I am really looking forward to some good food!!! I will be 14 weeks by then though so it "should" be ok!
So I am getting pretty excited about telling my parents too... I can't wait to see the looks on their faces when they find out how far along I already am! AND that they can tell whoever they want without me getting angry! Man December is going to be an awesome month!!!!

Monday, November 26, 2007

See ya later first Trimester!!!!!

Ok so I know that this is how I seem to start every post but YIPEEEEEE! 12 weeks today! How exciting is that! The little bean is growing and I have my next appt on the 3rd of December so hopefully we can hear the heartbeat by then. I can't wait. I just keep thinking... I saw the heartbeat so I know that all is well with the little guy!
This week is going to be a little bit hard for me as technically tomorrow was the day I lost the first bean so I am going to keep busy and not dwell on it.
12 more sleeps and I am on the beaches of Playa Del Carmen! Man I am stoked! K and I have been looking forward to this since January when we heard about it. Our friends M and D are getting hitched down there so there will be tons of people there. I am not looking forward to the flight though, I have to go the pharmacy and see what I can take that is safe for me to calm me down for the flight!
Hmm what else do I have to report? I am still getting night sickness and bloating it is gross but I am hoping it subsides in the next week so I am good for Mexico, I guess we will see! I also just finished writing our Christmas Update for this year, it is how I am going to announce that we are pregnant! I cannot wait to get that off my chest! I will have to mail them pretty close to Christmas though because I don't want people phoning my parents and letting them know before we can!
Well that seems to be it for now. Not very exciting... hopefully next Monday I will have more exciting news for everyone! If I don't update before then!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Week 11

Ok so first off... yipeeeeeeee another week has passed!!! That part always excites me at least there is one good thing about Mondays!! On another note I am feeling extremely tired and frustrated, or maybe stressed is a better word. So I am tired because I don't seem to be sleeping through the night due to some super strange dreams they are more positive now at least no more shootings going on, they are just strange and sometimes awkward. Ahh well I can handle that.
This week and next week mark the time when I lost our first baby Alarly (yes we named her it made it easier for me). I believe that something happened around week 10 or 11 and then I miscarried at 12 weeks 1 day. Just when you think you are in the clear. So I am in somewhat of a panic mode that it is going to happen again and that I will never get to have this baby. Or that I will never be able to experience a full birth and what being a mom is like. Alright I am an over analyzer but still these are the thoughts going through my brain. The what ifs of this week.
The other thing that is starting to bother me is that we have friends who are due the same time as us... my SIL M is due on the 6th I believe and our friends M and P are due on the 5th. Now this is not against them at all I am soooo excited for both couples that it makes me giddy! To think cousins the same age!!! That is what I always wanted and never had! But because they have no reason to worry and no family to wait until Christmas to tell they are starting to phone us as they turn 12 weeks. I want soooo badly to tell more people and to jump on the roof and shout it for everyone to hear, I want to be happier and proud and looking ahead and planning more. But K wants to keep this on the down low too, I get it and I get why. It is just hard, whenever I talk to my mom on the phone I want to tell her and have her be excited with me and to ask her a million questions and plan for a visit and all that stuff. I also want to tell my best friend, it feels so strange to keep this from people. I don't want to hurt them by not telling but I know if I tell my mom she will not be able to keep her mouth shut unless my dad duct tapes it up! Sorry mom when you read this.. we are too much alike so I know what you will do! I am super excited for this vacation to Mexico not just because we are getting out of town but because we can tell people when we are there... I can shout it from the rooftops.... I can talk about it all I want! Plus my friend M will be there and will be about 5 months preggers when I see her! Then after Mexico it is one week till I can tell my parents... I swear they aren't even going to walk in the door and I am going to shout.... I AM 16 WEEKS PREGGERSSSSS!!! Just like that. really loud and I won't care who is listening. Then I can post it on my facebook and tell the office (my boss knows) and tell every stranger I see. I swear going grocery shopping and making small talk with the lady at the till is sometimes the highlight of my day.... yup I am here cause I am preggers and I was totally craving.... (insert yummy or gross food here).
Ahhhhhh that feels better I have vented. Life can now continue!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Double Digits!

Yipeee so I am pretty excited! Double digits... yesterday marked my 10 week. I am making it 3 more weeks to go and I am 13 weeks and almost in Mexico sitting on the beach drinking a bottle of water. It just feels like some of my symptoms are going away (which I heard starts to happen around 10 weeks) and I want them to stay... I might have gas, feel like crap every night and have sore boobs but I took comfort in them! Ah well I saw a heart beat so the little one is in there and growing and developing!
In other news I went to the massage therapist today... I am officially hooked. She got all the "spots" that needed getting and will do more of an assessment next time I go in and see her which is next week! It was amazing, she would find a spot and then explain to me what it was affecting, the worst seemed to be my head and that is where I was getting my teeth clenching and migraines from!
So not much to report this time, had a migraine all weekend long and pretty much went to bed early every single night. Much to K's dismay I was a little boring this weekend. Although we had our amazing neighbors over for crepes on Saturday and that was pretty exciting. They brought their little puppy M over and W our 1 year old puppy and him are new BFF's! They are adorable together! We still have some crepes left over and whipped cream in the fridge but it was sooo good! It reminded me of home and my dad. He used to invite over a couple of families from our church on Sunday and we would all troop in and he would have 3 or 4 pans going at once making these crepes. If it was St. Paddy's day they were green, or pink on Valentines or blue just for fun! It really made me feel home sick.. I just have to think I get to see them at Christmas! Like a month and a bit away! Then I finally get to tell them that I am pregnant.... man are they going to be excited especially when they find out that I am out of the danger zone and into my second trimester by the time they come up!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

The Dr. is in

Went to the Dr. today, kind of an uneventful visit although I am getting a referral for massages. Thank goodness sometimes at night I would just like to remove my spine and put it back in when I wake up. Can't wait... Tuesday 1:45 relief of the back! ahhhhhh!
Didn't hear the heartbeat today although being only 9 weeks 2 days I really didn't expect to hopefully by next visit which is December 3rd! Right before Mexico! I told her about Mexico and the Dr. was a little hesitant on that one. Although I will be 13 weeks by the time we fly out she said if there is any bleeding that I shouldn't go so .... I WILL NOT BLEED! As the trip is already paid for and I have been looking forward to it forever! Plus I finally get to tell people that I am preggers while on that trip, I am finding it very hard to keep my mouth shut.
So not very exciting today but the Dr. trip was good, 178 bpm is normal high but still classified as normal and she said that everything else looked good which was encouraging. We have another U/S on Jan 15th and my blob will look more like a baby by then... we will have to come up with a new name for him/her!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Almost let it slip....

So my parents finally got back from Nashville this weekend.... I hadn't talked to my mom in over a week, which is not like us at all. It was strange knowing that I had a heartbeat and everything going on inside me and not being able to tell her. At one point in our conversation I was saying if we moved back to BC that we would need a bigger house due to a baby and the dog and 2 cats, to which she replied "was that a slip". I cooley responded with a no not a slip just hoping that we can get pregnant again soon, and knowing this would need to make room for a little one in a new house! Jeesh good save T, I want to tell her more than anything but no offense mom when you actually read this... you have a big mouth and will want to tell everyone the fantastic news. Hence we are telling only a couple of people for now.
For my wonderful friends that have shared in the news so far thank you for being an amazing ear, I am starting to actually get happy about being preggers and feeling a little more confident about the outcome of it. Tomorrow is my Dr's appointment so I guess we will figure out how everything is going then I am super excited!
In regards to how I am feeling health wise.... I feel like crap. I am still feeling super ill at nights and like I can't eat but I know I have to. I have that I am going to puke feeling for most of the evening and sadly the only thing that seems to sit well in my stomach right now is chocolate. So I don't feel fat enough already my body is craving things that just add to the waist line... stupid leftover Halloween candy. On the nicer side of things... it seems for now that my zit face is clearing up and leaving tiny little battle scars all over my chin. Ahh well that is what foundation is for! The gas seems to have left for now as well... although the boob pain... still here, and my cat J loves to walk and sleep on my chest which doesn't make for a nice wake up call during the night.
Alrighty then... enough ramblings for now.... I will fill in more tomorrow after the Dr's Appointment.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

We have a Heartbeat!!!


YIPEEE so today went well. I am sooo excited and can't wait for K to get home to share in the excitement. The only thing that sucks is that mom doesn't know yet and I can't just pick up the phone and talk to her about it.

Sooo we got to the appt and they took me in, I had to pee so bad when he started pressing on my bladder I thought I was going to pee on the bed! But he spent a bit looking around and I asked him if all was well b/c I was of course freaking out! He told me we had a heartbeat and that my uterus is tilted. Still not sure what that means but he just said it made it harder to get a clear pic. So we have named him blob for now, as that is all that he showed up to be, but that is MY blob and he has a heartbeat... I am so excited that I can't really contain myself right now.
Now the heartbeat was 178 bpm which I hope is normal but I guess we will see. It seems a little high for me. I have a Dr's appt on Wednesday so I guess we will see after that! For now I am so thankful for answered prayers and for my little blob. I am hoping that the nightmares go away for now and I can have some more sweet dreams!!